Sarah Simon, letter, to Eleazar Wheelock, 1769 [month unknown] 16

Author Simon, Sarah

Date1769

Call Number769900.1

abstractSimon writes to Wheelock that she fears she is irretrievably in the grip of the Devil.

handwritingHandwriting is small, yet largely clear and legible.

paperLarge sheet folded in half to make four pages is in good condition, with light staining, creasing and wear.

inkBrown-black.

Modernized Version Deletions removed; additions added in; modern spelling and capitalization added; unfamiliar abbreviations expanded.

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Rev. and Honoured Sir
I have been this Some time back
thinking upon things of religion; and I think they
do not look So plain to me as I have Seen them and I have great ma
ny wicked thoughts and I do not know what I
Shall do if I do not ask somebody's advice about
it for I feel very bad about it; I have thought a gr
eat while that I would Come and talk with the Doctor
but then I thought again that it will not do me
any good; for I have talked with the Doctor great many
times and If I do not mind them words that has
been already Said to me I Shall have the more to an
swer for; So I thought I would not go nowhere to
hear anything or no ask any questions about any

but I fear it is the works of Satan; and I have [illegible][guess: mind]
it 'til I am undone forever and I believe that
Satan is [illegible][guess: besser] with me than anybody else in
this world Even when I go to Read he takes all
my thoughts away upon something else
and my temptation he lays before me I thought
I never would not tell anybody of it but as
I was at home this afternoon all alone I was
thinking upon these things and wondering
what I should do and I thought of a book I [illegible][guess: heard]
Read once that when anyone was at lost
about any thing they must go to their —
minister and inquire of them and there
will lead you into it, and then I think it is my duty
to Come and take your advice. and I what want to know

is this am I incurable or not; the devil is [illegible][guess: just]
ready Sometimes to make me think that because I have
made a perversion and do not always keep upright.
and it seems to me all the true Christian never
meets with Such a struggle with Satan as
I do and so that makes me fear that I am
a Christian because the Devil is so be[illegible: [guess: s]]e with
me more than he is with any one else. for wh
en I go to try to pray he tell me that it
will not do any good neither will it merit
anything so he tries everything to put
me back. and o what shall I do it seem
to me I could write all this right to you
if it would do any good but i fear it will
not. —

So I desire to subscribe my
self your most humble and Ever
Dutiful Servant
Sarah Simon

From Sarah Simons
16th 1769.

for —

the Rev. Mr. Eleazar Wheelock DD
at
Lebanon
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