Theophilus Chamberlain, letter, to Eleazar Wheelock, 1766 April 26
Date26 April, 1766
Call Number766276
abstractChamberlin writes of his religious epiphany.
handwritingHandwriting is relatively clear, yet letter case (especially with regard to S and D) is often difficult to decipher. There are also many deletions and additions.
paperLarge sheet folded in half to make four pages is in good-to-fair condition, with moderate creasing, staining and wear.
inkBrown-black.
signatureSignature is abbreviated.
noteworthyThe book that Chamberlain mentions on one recto is: Theron and Aspasio: or, A Series of Dialogues and Letters upon the Most Important and Interesting Subjects, in three volumes by James Hervey, London, 1755.
Modernized Version Deletions removed; additions added in; modern spelling and capitalization added; unfamiliar abbreviations expanded.
you what I was lately mentioning of my Ex
periences since I left you last fall. I shall
use all possible Brevity, and the utmost
openess, in expressing the Real Sentiments
of my mind, in the Time of these Experiences.
to read , the Letters on Theron and Aspasio which served me no other purpose
than to give me an inveterate Prejudice
against the Author of them. when I was down last fall
I began to read him again with the disadvantage
of the Same Prejudice I had before imbibed. I had
Time to read but a small part of his first Volume
before I began my Journey in prosecution of my mission
among the Natives, to the westward.
on his definition of Faith. before I reached Albany it
once, and that for the first Time, came into my mind that
the faith there described, might be the faith of Gods Elect.
I See that in case it was so, a Train of consequences would
follow which were extremely disagreeable to me, yet in
some measure apprehending the Importance of my Knowing
the Truth, with regard to the Nature of faith, I determined
as Soon as my businesses would permit to Examine
the Scripture thoroughly on that head. when I got as far
as Canajoharie I was obliged to wait about three Weeks for
a Road and Company to Oneida. Most of the leisure I
had here, I Spent in Reading the Scripture with an
Intent to find out what the faith so much insisted on In Scrip
ture and by Divines, truly contains. When I come to
read the Gospel of John, and other Parts of the New Testament,
and to look Back to the faith of the ancients quoted from
the Old Testament, I became fully convinced that the Word
most plain and common sense; and that the faith
used as a Synonimy with Believe; and So frequently
connected with eternal Life, is a Plain, every-day-Belief,
of Truths Record in the Word of God. Having Got thus
far, I began to be greatly exercised about what, would be
my final Exit, and eternal State in the World of Spirits.
Life, to every one who believes them. My first thought
was that the necessary Truths must undoubtedly be revealed in
the Word of God in plain and intelligible Terms; but then it
turned in my mind that the Bible itself might be a fiction
me in belief of divine Revelation, and found them suf
ficient to Support me Still in believing, that the Bible is
in truth and reality the Word of God. I now read the
Gospel of Luke; I read it with Attention
and eagerness, hoping to light on Some Truth which would
Set me free, from that Concern and Anxiety respecting
my future existence which was Such an exercise to
my mind. I attended to the coming of the son of God into
the World, his conduct in the World, the doctrines he preached
, the opposition of the World to him on account of his con
duct, and Doctrines, and his finally Suffering even un
to Death. my next concern was to determine certainly
and precisely, what it was he suffered for. I read the Book
of Isaiah; the Law given at Mount Sinai; took par
ticular Notice of the curses pronounced against every
offence, and turned then to every passage I could find
in the New Testament which gave any account of what
Christ died for. at length, I came to this conclusion
that Christ suffered the whole length and Breadth of that
Suffering which the Law threatened, for every offence
that will finally be forgiven. This conclusion im
mediately presented to my view a Character of God
which was at once amiable and awful. amiable in
this, that he is so infinitely kind and compassionate to his creatures, that he
entertains thoughts of Pardon and happiness for them
when deserving to the last degree the tokens of his
eternal Anger and Indignation; and never punishes
them for want of Benevolence. and awful in that
he never will forgive an Offence against his own
Law 'til the sentence of the Law against that offence
is inflicted to the full; and that though his own
son is accountable for offences, he must for every offence bear
the full punishment
its own measures and never a Single Creature
more is made miserable, than what the Law absolutely
Required in order that God the giver of it might remain
a God of truth, and
So Support his moral government in the universe.
I got now effectually convinced that nothing could be
more absurd than for me to use the least endeavour[illegible][guess: s]
to procure the favour of god, or to
gain Acceptance to Salvation. I now really believed
or I knew that if God should punish me with eternal
misery for every offence, to his Law, I ever had com
mitted,
it would proceed
from no disposition contrary to that he commands in the
Law, viz, thou shalt Love they Neighbour as thy
self. In this crisis, I found no other reason to hope
for Salvation, than barely this that God designed to save
some Creatures of my own Character. nor did this
foundation, appear small or inconsiderable, for
I knew, that nothing but gods sovereignty had laid
this foundation, and that neither I nor any of my Character
had the least desert in us of even this foundation
of hope. Here I hoped, and Still hope with trem
bling, and it is my glory and Joy that a door of hope
is here Let open to me which no man can shut.
that I have crowded these things, So much together
, that some confusion is created. If you read it and
can understand my meaning my End is answered.
Theophilus Chamberlain
To Rev. Eleazar Wheelock