Theophilus Chamberlain, letter, to Eleazar Wheelock, 1766 April 26
Date26 April, 1766
Call Number766276
abstractChamberlin writes of his religious epiphany.
handwritingHandwriting is relatively clear, yet letter case (especially with regard to S and D) is often difficult to decipher. There are also many deletions and additions.
paperLarge sheet folded in half to make four pages is in good-to-fair condition, with moderate creasing, staining and wear.
inkBrown-black.
signatureSignature is abbreviated.
noteworthyThe book that Chamberlain mentions on one recto is: Theron and Aspasio: or, A Series of Dialogues and Letters upon the Most Important and Interesting Subjects, in three volumes by James Hervey, London, 1755.
you wt I was latly mentioning of my Ex
periences since I left you laſt fall. I shall
uſe all poſible Brevity, and ye utmoſt
openeſs, in expreſsing ye Real Sentiments
of my mind, in ye Time of theſe Experiences.
to read
yn to give me an invetrate Prejudice
againſt ye Author of ym. when I was down laſt fall
I began to read him again with ye diſadvantage
of ye Same Prejud
Time to read but a Smal part of his firſt Volume
before I began my Journey in Proſecution of my miſion
on his difinition of Faith. before I reached Albany it
once, and yt for ye firſt Time, came into my mind yt
ye faith yr Diſcribed, might be ye faith of Gods Elect.
I See yt in Caſe it was so, a Train of Conſequences wld
folow wh were Extreamly Diſagreable to me, yet in
some meaſure aprihending ye Importance of my Knowing
the Truth, with regard to ye Nature of faith, I determined
the Scripture thorowly on yt head. wn I got as far
as Kanajoharry I was obliged to waite about three Weeks for
a Road and Company to Onoida. Moſt of ye Leaſure I
had here, I Spent in Reading the Scripture with an
Intent to find out wt ye faith somuch Inſiſted on In Script
ture and by Divines, truly contains. Wn I come to
read ye Goſple of John, and other Parts of ye New Teſtament,
and to look Back to ye faith of ye Antien
ye Old Teſtament, I became fully convincd yt the Word
moſt plain and commone Senſe; and yt
uſed as a Synonimy with Believe; and So frequently
connected with eternal
of
far, I began to be greatly Exerciſed about wt, would be
my finale Exit, and eternal State in ye World of Spirits.
Life, to every one who believes ym. My firſt thought
was yt ye neceſary Truths muſt undoubtedly be revealed in
ye Word of G. in plain and intelegible Terms; but yn it
turnd in my mind yt ye Bible itſelf might be a fiction
me in belief of divine Revelation, and found ym Suf
ficent to Support me Still in believing, yt ye Bible is
in truth and reality ye Word of God. I now read the
Goſple of Luke;
and Eagerneſs, hoping to lite on Some Truth wh wld
Set me free, from yt Concern
my future Exiſtance wh was Such an Exerciſe to
my mind. I attended to ye coming of ye son of God into
ye World, his conduct in ye World, ye doctrines he preachd
, ye oppoſion of ye World to him on account of his con
duct, and Doctrines, and his finaly Suffering even un
to Death. my next concern was to determine certainly
and preciſly, wt it was he Sufferd for. I read ye Book
of Isaiah; the Law given at Mount Sinai; took per
ticuliar Notice of ye Curſes pronounced againſt every
offence, and turnd yn to every Paſage I could find
in ye New Testament wh gave any account of wt
Chriſt died for. at length, I came to this concluſion
yt Chriſt Sufferd ye whole length and Breadth of yt
Suffering wh ye Law threatend, for every offence
yt will finaly be forgiven. This concluſion im
mediately preſented to my view a Character of God
wh was at once amiable and awfull. amiable in
ys, yt he is so infinitly kind & compaſionate to his creatures, yt he
entertains thoughts of Pardon and happineſs for ym
eternal Anger and Indignation; and never puniſhes
ym for want of Benevolence. and awfull in yt
he never will forgive an Offence againſt his own
Law till ye Sentance of ye Law againſt yt offence
is
son is accountable for offences, he muſt for every offence bare
[right]the full puniſhment
its own meaſures and never a Single
more is made miſerable, yn wt ye Law abſoloutly
Required in order yt God ye giver of it might remain
So Support his moral government in ye univerſe.
I got now effectualy convincd yt nothing could be
more abſurd yn for me to uſe ye leaſt indeavour[illegible][guess: s]
to
gain Acceptance to Salvation. I now realy believd
or I knew yt if God should puniſh me with eternal
miſery for every offence, to his Law, I ever had com
mited,
from no
Law, viz, thou shalt Love they Neighbour as thy
self. In this Criſis, I found no other Reaſon to hope
for Salvation, yn barly this yt God diſignd to save
some Creatures of my own Character. nor did this
foundation, appear smal or inconſiderable, for
I knew, yt nothing but gods sovereignt had laid
this foundation, and yt nither I nor any of my Character
had ye leaſt Deſert in us of even this foundation
of hope. Here I hoped, and Still hope with trem
bling, and it is my glory and Joy yt a door of hope
is here Let open to me wh no man can shut.
yt I have crouded theſe things,
, yt some confuſion is created. If you read it and
can underſtand my meaning my End is anſwerd.
Theop Chamberlain
To Rd E Wheelock