Hezekiah Calvin, letter to Eleazar Wheelock, 1768 March
March 1768[1768-03]
ms number768240.1
[note (type: abstract): Calvin confesses to a troubled mind and to regret at having considered marrying at too young an age. He asks permission to go home.][note (type: handwriting): Formal handwriting is clear and legible.][note (type: paper): Single, medium-sized sheet is in good condition, with light-to-moderate staining, creasing and wear.][note (type: ink): Dark-brown. The nib of the pen appears to change midway through one recto.][note (type: noteworthy): On one verso, an unknown hand that may or may not be Calvin's has started and abandoned an address.][note (type: signature): The signature is abbreviated.]
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These Lines I write in order to inform you under my [undsteadyneſs | unsteadiness]undsteadyneſsunsteadiness of Mind, what it is, that so much besets me in [thoſe | those]thoſethose most horrid Crimes of lately, is ([1st | 1st]1st1st) [becauſe | because]becauſebecause I have
^[left] thought^thought myself past hopes of [forgiveneſs | forgiveness]forgiveneſsforgiveness from God, [& | and]&and that I could not make myself any better after it. [& | and]&and that my Days were but few, [& | and]&and that [thoſe | those]thoſethose few I intended to spend to serve Satan;
[& | and]&and to take what [pleaſure | pleasure]pleaſurepleasure I could here on Earth, while I [tar‐ ryed | tarried]tar‐ ryedtarried here in the Woreld, such were my wicked thoughts.
^[left] [2dly | 2dly]2dly2dly^[2dly | 2dly]2dly2dly. My Mind has been [uneaſy | uneasy]uneaſyuneasy, but being some bashful I had it not in my heart to tell, but thought in
myself to break [a way | away]a wayaway privately, [& | and]&and yet I cant tell now without blushing, but think‐ ing it my
Duty, it constrains me to break forth in this manner, Wretched now that I am, that
ever I thought of a Conjugal state when I was, [& | and]&and am yet Young for that state which has Continually been in my Breast since
the [Dor | Doctor]DorDoctor encouraged me in it,(I [do'nt | don't]do'ntdon't mean to reflect on the [Docr | Doctor]DocrDoctor) but on myself, being so foolish as to entertain such a thought in my
Breast, then being so Young. I must own that, that ^[above] it^it was a
Strong Motive in my misbehaving at Fort
Hunter[place0078.ocp] among the Mohawks[org0062.ocp]; nothing was
in my thoughts but being [Mar–d | married]Mar–dmarried, [& | and]&and My thoughts being captivated with this, has been a strong Motive to
get me into [intemperace | intemperance]intemperaceintemperance, thinking I should be turned away from the
School[org0098.ocp], [& | and]&and so it was from one Crime to another hoping the same, but what a sordid
thoughts are [theſe | these]theſethese attempting such an Action as this without the [Doc.rs | Doctor's]Doc.rsDoctor's knowledge [&c | etc.]&cetc.
There is something that makes me want to go home, what, I cant tell, Home is in my
Mind all the time I want to go Home soon [& | and]&and see my Relations, [& | and]&and it seems to me to Tarry home a while or all the Time, [& | and]&and let me see if that I am able to support myself, I have [tarryed | tarried]tarryedtarried upon Charity long enough, when I have had no more Gratitude to my
Benefactors than I have had done, but all prove to the Contrary, instead of being
grateful, I am as ungrate‐ ful as a Beast, which lays near to my
Mind I had rather go home [& | and]&and be [turn'd | turned]turn'dturned out of the School which I have thought has been my Portion for some time I am
[uneaſy | uneasy]uneaſyuneasy while I am here [& | and]&and think upon home, if the [Doc.r | Doctor]Doc.rDoctor is [pleaſ'd | pleased]pleaſ'dpleased to give me liberty to I will go, but with much shame [& | and]&and Contempt of myself, [&c | etc.]&cetc.
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I remain Your Undutiful
[& | and]&and Ungrateful Servant
[H | Hezekiah]HHezekiah Calvin[pers0008.ocp]
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[bottom] From [Hez: | Hezekiah]Hez:Hezekiah Calvin[pers0008.ocp]
March 1768[1768-03]
From [Hez: | Hezekiah]Hez:Hezekiah Calvin[pers0008.ocp]
March 1768[1768-03]
For the Reverend
[Mr | Mr.]MrMr.
[Eleazer | Eleazar]EleazerEleazar Wheelock D. D.[pers0036.ocp]
Lebanon[place0122.ocp]
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^[right] To—^To—
^[right] The Reverend^The Reverend
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pers0008.ocp | H Hezekiah Calvin | writer | Calvin, Hezekiah |
pers0008.ocp | Hez: Hezekiah Calvin | writer | Calvin, Hezekiah |
pers0036.ocp | M r Mr. Eleazer Eleazar Wheelock D. D. | recipient | Wheelock, Eleazar |
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place0122.ocp | Lebanon | Lebanon |
place0078.ocp | Fort Hunter | Fort Hunter |
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org0062.ocp | Mohawks | Mohawk Nation |
org0098.ocp | the School | Moor’s Indian Charity School |
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1768-03 | March AD. 1768 |
1768-03 | March 1768 |
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modernization | thoſe | those |
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modernization | pleaſure | pleasure |
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