Hezekiah Calvin, letter, to Eleazar Wheelock, 1768 January 29
29 January 1768[1768-01-29]
Call Number768129
[note (type: abstract): Calvin confesses to drunkenness and going away without leave. He notes that he almost went to sea.][note (type: handwriting): Handwriting is small and clear, with commas used in place of periods.][note (type: paper): Four half sheets are folded like a book, with moderate wear, staining and creasing.][note (type: ink): There is some smudging and spattering of ink.][note (type: noteworthy): It is uncertain whether this is an original or a contemporary copy. Trailer is in another hand.][note (type: signature): Signature is abbreviated to “Hez, Calvin.”][note (type: layout): First page of letter is on two recto, not one recto. Pages follow normal sequence from there.]
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[Opener]
The Spirit of [Grate
tude | grati
tude]Grate
tudegrati
tude lays me under an [indispen
sible | indispen
sable]indispen
sibleindispen
sable Duty of thanking you for
all the Care and Pains you have
taken in my Education. —
Tis true I have been Guilty of
[Drunkeneſs | drunkeness]Drunkeneſsdrunkeness, but be [aſsured | assured]aſsuredassured the
misfortune which occasioned me
to Depart so, was my being in
Liquor, or I never would have
done it, I came to myself when
[left] or afteror after I had got to Lebanon Plains[place0124.ocp],
And after I found myself I was
so ashamed of myself that I did
not want to show myself in the
School[org0098.ocp] no more, But [Deſigned | designed]Deſigneddesigned[illegible]y
fully in my Mind to follow the
Seas or go home, But I concluded
to follow the Seas, I went to
sea brook[place0204.ocp] [& | and]&and [their | there]theirthere I found my
me a sloop going to Virginia[place0236.ocp] [& | and]&and in-
tended to gone [of | off]ofoff with her, but as I
was considering what I had been
about, [their | there]theirthere came in my Mind
something as if I could not go,
before I had given thanks' to
the Doctor[pers0036.ocp] for my Education
[& | and]&and then Leave to Depart from
his School[org0098.ocp] [& | and]&and [preſence | presence]preſencepresence, — And
then after this I concluded to
come Back [& | and]&and see [Mr | Mr.]MrMr. Wheelock[pers0036.ocp]
before I could go with clear
Conscience [&c | etc.]&cetc. —
Tis true I have been Guilty of
[Drunkenneſs | drunkenness]Drunkenneſsdrunkenness now twice [& | and]&and of
[illegible]going away without [above] LeaveLeave
[Numberleſs | numberless]Numberleſsnumberless
[& | and]&and it is with Shame I put pen to
Paper, after having so notoriously
[abuſed | abused]abuſedabused your [goodneſs | goodness]goodneſsgoodness [& | and]&and have
brought a scandalous reproach
upon the School[org0098.ocp] by being
Scandalously Drawn aside with
Liquor, thus to [abuſe | abuse]abuſeabuse thee, [& | and]&and thy
school[org0098.ocp], for which I heartily beg
Pardon, [Promiſing | promising]Promiſingpromising double
diligence in watching against
any such evil Practices for the
future But having [promiſed | promised]promiſedpromised
so many times, I would not, that
you should any longer be deceiv-
ed — I am now returning from
my evil ways, to come home, [& | and]&and lay
myself on my bended knee, at
thy feet, that I may wholly
submit myself to the resent-
ment of a Master unjustly [abuſed | abused]abuſedabused,
If the acknowledging my Crime,
can have any influence on
your [Goodneſs | goodness]Goodneſsgoodness, I am sure of
[Succeſs | success]Succeſssuccess, I have [incurrd | incurred]incurrdincurred your
[displeaſure | displeasure]displeaſuredispleasure by my Ill Deed.
on the Eighteen Day of January
in the Year of our Lord 1768[1768-01-18]
A [Weakneſs | weakness]Weakneſsweakness in me that is always
attended with a hearty contrition
[& | and]&and therefore ashamed of that action
I leave the [Judgment | judgement]Judgmentjudgement of my
[weakneſs | weakness]weakneſsweakness to you all who are
[Preſent | present]Preſentpresent [& | and]&and am willing to suffer
the Judgment that ye will [paſs | pass]paſspass
upon me, having wholly
condemned myself already
worthy of great punishment
[& | and]&and then to be turned away from
the school[org0098.ocp] with all the dis-
graces that can be. —
You know that our first
motions are so arbitrary in
their Violence, that in spite
of [reaſon | reason]reaſonreason they will undergo
no Laws but their own
therefore I beg you would consider
that in the faults I have commit-
ted, there was more contributed
by Nature, than my own free will
But as all Mankind are subject
to failings, [& | and]&and none perfect I am
consequently liable to step [aſide | aside]aſideaside
in Liquor [& | and]&and commit Errors
tis therefore I am heartily
Sorrow for being there drawn
aside from my [reaſons | reasons]reaſonsreasons, but
laying [my self | myself]my selfmyself low at thye feet
of a just [Displeaſed | displeased]Displeaſeddispleased Superior
[imploreing | imploring]imploreingimploring thy [Compaſsion | compassion]Compaſsioncompassion
[& | and]&and acknowledging my fault
tude | grati
tude]Grate
tudegrati
tude lays me under an [indispen
sible | indispen
sable]indispen
sibleindispen
sable Duty of thanking you for
all the Care and Pains you have
taken in my Education. —
Tis true I have been Guilty of
[Drunkeneſs | drunkeness]Drunkeneſsdrunkeness, but be [aſsured | assured]aſsuredassured the
misfortune which occasioned me
to Depart so, was my being in
Liquor, or I never would have
done it, I came to myself when
[left] or afteror after I had got to Lebanon Plains[place0124.ocp],
And after I found myself I was
so ashamed of myself that I did
not want to show myself in the
School[org0098.ocp] no more, But [Deſigned | designed]Deſigneddesigned
fully in my Mind to follow the
Seas or go home, But I concluded
to follow the Seas, I went to
sea brook[place0204.ocp] [& | and]&and [their | there]theirthere I found my
me a sloop going to Virginia[place0236.ocp] [& | and]&and in-
tended to gone [of | off]ofoff with her, but as I
was considering what I had been
about, [their | there]theirthere came in my Mind
something as if I could not go,
before I had given thanks' to
the Doctor[pers0036.ocp] for my Education
[& | and]&and then Leave to Depart from
his School[org0098.ocp] [& | and]&and [preſence | presence]preſencepresence, — And
then after this I concluded to
come Back [& | and]&and see [Mr | Mr.]MrMr. Wheelock[pers0036.ocp]
before I could go with clear
Conscience [&c | etc.]&cetc. —
Tis true I have been Guilty of
[Drunkenneſs | drunkenness]Drunkenneſsdrunkenness now twice [& | and]&and of
[& | and]&and it is with Shame I put pen to
Paper, after having so notoriously
[abuſed | abused]abuſedabused your [goodneſs | goodness]goodneſsgoodness [& | and]&and have
brought a scandalous reproach
upon the School[org0098.ocp] by being
Scandalously Drawn aside with
Liquor, thus to [abuſe | abuse]abuſeabuse thee, [& | and]&and thy
school[org0098.ocp], for which I heartily beg
Pardon, [Promiſing | promising]Promiſingpromising double
diligence in watching against
any such evil Practices for the
future But having [promiſed | promised]promiſedpromised
so many times, I would not, that
you should any longer be deceiv-
ed — I am now returning from
my evil ways, to come home, [& | and]&and lay
myself on my bended knee, at
thy feet, that I may wholly
submit myself to the resent-
ment of a Master unjustly [abuſed | abused]abuſedabused,
If the acknowledging my Crime,
can have any influence on
your [Goodneſs | goodness]Goodneſsgoodness, I am sure of
[Succeſs | success]Succeſssuccess, I have [incurrd | incurred]incurrdincurred your
[displeaſure | displeasure]displeaſuredispleasure by my Ill Deed.
on the Eighteen Day of January
in the Year of our Lord 1768[1768-01-18]
A [Weakneſs | weakness]Weakneſsweakness in me that is always
attended with a hearty contrition
[& | and]&and therefore ashamed of that action
I leave the [Judgment | judgement]Judgmentjudgement of my
[weakneſs | weakness]weakneſsweakness to you all who are
[Preſent | present]Preſentpresent [& | and]&and am willing to suffer
the Judgment that ye will [paſs | pass]paſspass
upon me, having wholly
condemned myself already
worthy of great punishment
[& | and]&and then to be turned away from
the school[org0098.ocp] with all the dis-
graces that can be. —
You know that our first
motions are so arbitrary in
their Violence, that in spite
of [reaſon | reason]reaſonreason they will undergo
no Laws but their own
therefore I beg you would consider
that in the faults I have commit-
ted, there was more contributed
by Nature, than my own free will
But as all Mankind are subject
to failings, [& | and]&and none perfect I am
consequently liable to step [aſide | aside]aſideaside
in Liquor [& | and]&and commit Errors
tis therefore I am heartily
Sorrow for being there drawn
aside from my [reaſons | reasons]reaſonsreasons, but
laying [my self | myself]my selfmyself low at th
of a just [Displeaſed | displeased]Displeaſeddispleased Superior
[imploreing | imploring]imploreingimploring thy [Compaſsion | compassion]Compaſsioncompassion
[& | and]&and acknowledging my fault
[Closer]
[Trailer]
Cal[illegible]vins [Confeſsion | confession]Confeſsionconfession
[Jan.y | January]Jan.yJanuary [29.th | 29th]29.th29th 1768[1768-01-29]
[Jan.y | January]Jan.yJanuary [29.th | 29th]29.th29th 1768[1768-01-29]
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People identified in this document:
id | Text in document | Role in header | Authorized Name |
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pers0036.ocp | the Doctor | recipient | Wheelock, Eleazar |
pers0036.ocp | M r Mr. Wheelock | recipient | Wheelock, Eleazar |
pers0008.ocp | Hez, Hezekiah Calvin | writer | Calvin, Hezekiah |
Places identified in this document:
id | Text in document | Authorized Name |
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place0143.ocp | Mohegan | Mohegan |
place0124.ocp | Lebanon Plains | Lebanon Plains |
place0204.ocp | sea brook | Old Saybrook |
place0236.ocp | Virginia | Commonwealth of Virginia |
Organizations identified in this document:
id | Text in document | Authorized Name |
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org0098.ocp | School | Moor’s Indian Charity School |
org0098.ocp | his School | Moor’s Indian Charity School |
org0098.ocp | the School | Moor’s Indian Charity School |
org0098.ocp | thy school | Moor’s Indian Charity School |
org0098.ocp | the school | Moor’s Indian Charity School |
Dates identified in this document:
Standard Form | Text |
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1768-01-29 | Jan.January 29 1768 |
1768-01-18 | Eighteen Day of January in the Year of our Lord 1768 |
1768-01-29 | Jan.yJanuary 29.th29th 1768 |
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variation | Grate tude |
grati tude |
variation | indispen sible |
indispen sable |
modernization | Drunkeneſs | drunkeness |
modernization | aſsured | assured |
modernization | Deſigned | designed |
variation | of | off |
modernization | preſence | presence |
modernization | Mr | Mr. |
modernization | &c | etc. |
modernization | Drunkenneſs | drunkenness |
modernization | Numberleſs | numberless |
modernization | abuſed | abused |
modernization | goodneſs | goodness |
modernization | abuſe | abuse |
modernization | Promiſing | promising |
modernization | promiſed | promised |
modernization | Goodneſs | goodness |
modernization | Succeſs | success |
variation | incurrd | incurred |
modernization | displeaſure | displeasure |
modernization | Weakneſs | weakness |
variation | Judgment | judgement |
modernization | weakneſs | weakness |
modernization | Preſent | present |
modernization | paſs | pass |
modernization | reaſon | reason |
modernization | aſide | aside |
modernization | reaſons | reasons |
variation | my self | myself |
modernization | Displeaſed | displeased |
variation | imploreing | imploring |
modernization | Compaſsion | compassion |
modernization | Confeſsion | confession |
modernization | 29.th | 29th |
Expanded abbreviations:
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Jan. | January |
& | and |
Hez, | Hezekiah |
Jan.y | January |
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