Hezekiah Calvin, letter, to Eleazar Wheelock, 1768 January 29

Author Calvin, Hezekiah[pers0008.ocp]

29 January 1768[1768-01-29]

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[note (type: abstract): Calvin confesses to drunkenness and going away without leave. He notes that he almost went to sea.][note (type: handwriting): Handwriting is small and clear, with commas used in place of periods.][note (type: paper): Four half sheets are folded like a book, with moderate wear, staining and creasing.][note (type: ink): There is some smudging and spattering of ink.][note (type: noteworthy): It is uncertain whether this is an original or a contemporary copy. Trailer is in another hand.][note (type: signature): Signature is abbreviated to “Hez, Calvin.”][note (type: layout): First page of letter is on two recto, not one recto. Pages follow normal sequence from there.]
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 Honoured Sir,
The Spirit of [Gratetude | gratitude]Gratetudegratitude lays me under an [indispensible | indispensable]indispensibleindispensable Duty of thanking you for all the Care and Pains you have taken in my Education. — Tis true I have been Guilty of [Drunkeneſs | drunkeness]Drunkeneſsdrunkeness, but be [aſsured | assured]aſsuredassured the misfortune which occasioned me to Depart so, was my being in Liquor, or I never would have done it, I came to myself when ^[left] or after^or after I had got to Lebanon Plains[place0124.ocp], And after I found myself I was so ashamed of myself that I did not want to show myself in the School[org0098.ocp] no more, But [Deſigned | designed]Deſigneddesigned [illegible]y fully in my Mind to follow the Seas or go home, But I concluded to follow the Seas, I went to sea brook[place0204.ocp] [& | and]&and [their | there]theirthere I found my
me a sloop going to Virginia[place0236.ocp] [& | and]&and in- tended to gone [of | off]ofoff with her, but as I was considering what I had been about, [their | there]theirthere came in my Mind something as if I could not go, before I had given thanks' to the Doctor[pers0036.ocp] for my Education [& | and]&and then Leave to Depart from his School[org0098.ocp] [& | and]&and [preſence | presence]preſencepresence, — And then after this I concluded to come Back [& | and]&and see [Mr | Mr.]MrMr. Wheelock[pers0036.ocp] before I could go with clear Conscience [&c | etc.]&cetc. Tis true I have been Guilty of [Drunkenneſs | drunkenness]Drunkenneſsdrunkenness now twice [& | and]&and of [illegible]going away without ^[above] Leave^Leave [Numberleſs | numberless]Numberleſsnumberless [& | and]&and it is with Shame I put pen to Paper, after having so notoriously [abuſed | abused]abuſedabused your [goodneſs | goodness]goodneſsgoodness [& | and]&and have brought a scandalous reproach upon the School[org0098.ocp] by being
Scandalously Drawn aside with Liquor, thus to [abuſe | abuse]abuſeabuse thee, [& | and]&and thy school[org0098.ocp], for which I heartily beg Pardon, [Promiſing | promising]Promiſingpromising double diligence in watching against any such evil Practices for the future But having [promiſed | promised]promiſedpromised so many times, I would not, that you should any longer be deceiv-ed — I am now returning from my evil ways, to come home, [& | and]&and lay myself on my bended knee, at thy feet, that I may wholly submit myself to the resent-ment of a Master unjustly [abuſed | abused]abuſedabused, If the acknowledging my Crime, can have any influence on your [Goodneſs | goodness]Goodneſsgoodness, I am sure of [Succeſs | success]Succeſssuccess, I have [incurrd | incurred]incurrdincurred your [displeaſure | displeasure]displeaſuredispleasure by my Ill Deed.
on the Eighteen Day of January in the Year of our Lord 1768[1768-01-18] A [Weakneſs | weakness]Weakneſsweakness in me that is always attended with a hearty contrition [& | and]&and therefore ashamed of that action I leave the [Judgment | judgement]Judgmentjudgement of my [weakneſs | weakness]weakneſsweakness to you all who are [Preſent | present]Preſentpresent [& | and]&and am willing to suffer the Judgment that ye will [paſs | pass]paſspass upon me, having wholly condemned myself already worthy of great punishment [& | and]&and then to be turned away from the school[org0098.ocp] with all the dis-graces that can be. — You know that our first motions are so arbitrary in their Violence, that in spite of [reaſon | reason]reaſonreason they will undergo no Laws but their own
therefore I beg you would consider that in the faults I have commit-ted, there was more contributed by Nature, than my own free will But as all Mankind are subject to failings, [& | and]&and none perfect I am consequently liable to step [aſide | aside]aſideaside in Liquor [& | and]&and commit Errors tis therefore I am heartily Sorrow for being there drawn aside from my [reaſons | reasons]reaſonsreasons, but laying [my self | myself]my selfmyself low at thye feet of a just [Displeaſed | displeased]Displeaſeddispleased Superior [imploreing | imploring]imploreingimploring thy [Compaſsion | compassion]Compaſsioncompassion [& | and]&and acknowledging my fault
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with Contrition subscribe myself thine unworthy Servant [Hez, | Hezekiah]Hez,Hezekiah Calvin[pers0008.ocp]
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Cal[illegible]vins [Confeſsion | confession]Confeſsionconfession [Jan.y | January]Jan.yJanuary [29.th | 29th]29.th29th 1768[1768-01-29]
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id Text in document Role in header Authorized Name
pers0036.ocp the Doctor recipient Wheelock, Eleazar
pers0036.ocp M r Mr. Wheelock recipient Wheelock, Eleazar
pers0008.ocp Hez, Hezekiah Calvin writer Calvin, Hezekiah

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id Text in document Authorized Name
place0143.ocp Mohegan Mohegan
place0124.ocp Lebanon Plains Lebanon Plains
place0204.ocp sea brook Old Saybrook
place0236.ocp Virginia Commonwealth of Virginia

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id Text in document Authorized Name
org0098.ocp School Moor’s Indian Charity School
org0098.ocp his School Moor’s Indian Charity School
org0098.ocp the School Moor’s Indian Charity School
org0098.ocp thy school Moor’s Indian Charity School
org0098.ocp the school Moor’s Indian Charity School

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1768-01-29 Jan.January 29 1768
1768-01-18 Eighteen Day of January in the Year of our Lord 1768
1768-01-29 Jan.yJanuary 29.th29th 1768

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