Levi Frisbie, letter, to Eleazar Wheelock, 1768 April 23

Author Frisbie, Levi

Date23 April, 1768

Call Number768273.1

abstractFrisbie writes that he considers himself unfit for missionary work.

handwritingHandwriting is small and slanting, yet mostly formal and clear. The trailer is in an unknown hand.

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Rev. Sir. —

I must acknowledge that what the Doctor mentioned
to me with respect to going among the Indians in the
character of a missionary was very surprising, and I
think not without reason as it was a thing entirely
new to me and what I least thought of, and
as the Doctor mentioned it as though, he had determined upon
it so far as to mention it to the Ministers at Enfield.
I must think that the Doctor has too great opinion of
my abilities, or else dont look upon it necessary for
a missionary to have but very ordinary qualifications
for such a work — I look upon myself entirely unfit upon
every account, My knowledge in divinity is nothing, it is as
a drop compared to the Ocean — I should not know how to begin
nor what to say, nor which way to go to work, to try to instruct
People in Religion, and the great things of Eternity— I am
but a giddy Boy, know nothing of the world, have not that
prudence, that wisdom discretion and fortitude that is necess‐
ary. I have no acquaintance with the Indians dont unders‐
tand their Tempers customs and Manners and should be entirely
unable to conform to them —If I should go in the Character
of a missionary, the Indians would expect as much from
me as a Man of the greatest accomplishments, would
make no allowance for my puerility, and deficiency in
almost every necessary Qualification, and if
I should not fulfill their expectations, I should fall into
contempt among them, and if not spurned away or killed,
yet should be under no capacity of doing good — Mr. Kirt‐
land
has been there and I must be equal with him —
What can I tell them? that I am half a missionary?
and what can I tell them is the reason that there was not
whole ones sent? The Doctor knows my weak Constitution
and that to keep a School, and to pretend to instruct in a higher
capacity will be quite too much for my Strength, especially
considering all other hardships — how shall I lift up my
Face before the learned Errorist, I shall be unable wholly
to defend my Religion by dint of Argument; It is true God
can make the weakest Means effectual, but yet there seems
there must in ordinary way be some fitness in the Means — we
should not think a pop gun had any fitness in it to batter down
a strong wall — And besides what will the Enemies of the
design say? that the Doctor took a freshman out of
College and made a missionary of him, even one who
was but a giddy boy? and will they not take occasion
to despise me, and ridicule the design to the last degree —
its a case of necessity it may be answered, — if a Man was
drowning it would be necessary to help him out, but would
it be wise for a Man that could not swim at all to
leap in after him? — If some of us must go I humbly
imagine McClure far better qualified than I, and
I was surprised to think I should be chosen in this
Juncture. before him — and to my shame may I speak
it I am not a church member, and have the utmost,
reason to fear I have no grace — and who will license
such a wretch to preach — it's a thing I little expected
to enter upon yet, and have not given my thoughts immedi‐
ately to it — I cant think it is my Duty to go in that
capacity, and if I do it will be wholly out of deference
to other Peoples Judgment, and quite contrary to my
own — I could offer many more Objections but I forbear,
please to pardon my plainness — I thought it my Duty
to tell my Mind —
Reverend Sir I am your
most obliged unworthy Pupil
Levi Frisbie
From Levi Frisbie
April 23rd 1768

To
The Reverend E. Wheelock, D. D.

 In
 Connecticut
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