Levi Frisbie, letter, to Eleazar Wheelock, 1768 April 23
Date23 April, 1768
Call Number768273.1
abstractFrisbie writes that he considers himself unfit for missionary work.
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April 23 1768
Rev. Sir. —
I must acknowledge that what the Doctor mentioned to me with respect to going among the Indians in the character of a missionary was very surprising, and I think not without reason as it was a thing entirely
new to me and what I least thought of, and as the Doctor mentioned it as though, he had determined upon it so far as to mention it to the Ministers at Enfield. I must think that the Doctor has
too great opinion of
my abilities, or else dont look upon it necessary for a missionary to have but very ordinary qualifications for such a work — I look
upon myself entirely unfit upon every account, My knowledge in divinity is nothing, it is as a drop compared to the Ocean — I should not know how to begin nor what to say, nor
which way to go to work, to try to instruct
People in Religion, and the great things of Eternity— I am but a giddy Boy, know nothing of the world, have not that prudence, that wisdom discretion and fortitude that is necess‐ary. I have no acquaintance with the Indians dont unders‐ tand
their Tempers customs and Manners and should be entirely
unable to conform to them —If I should go in the Character
of a missionary, the Indians would expect as much from me as a Man of the greatest
accomplishments, would make no allowance for my puerility, and deficiency in
almost every necessary Qualification, and if I should not fulfill their expectations, I should fall into contempt among them, and if not spurned away or killed, yet should be under no capacity of doing good — Mr. Kirt‐land has been there and I must be equal with him — What can I tell them? that I am half a missionary? and what can I tell them is the reason that there was not whole ones sent? The Doctor knows my weak Constitution and that to keep a School, and to pretend to
instruct in a higher
capacity will be quite too much for my Strength, especially
considering all other hardships — how shall I lift up my Face
before the learned Errorist, I shall be unable wholly to defend my Religion by dint
of Argument; It is true God can make the weakest Means effectual, but yet there seems there must in ordinary way be some fitness in the Means — we should not think a pop gun had any fitness in it to batter down a strong wall — And besides what will the Enemies of the
design say? that the Doctor took a freshman out of
College and made a missionary of him, even one who was but a giddy boy? and will they not take occasion
to despise me, and ridicule the design to the last degree — its a case of necessity it may be answered, — if a Man was drowning it would be necessary to help him out, but would it be wise for a Man that could not swim at all to leap in after him? — If some
of us must go I humbly
imagine
McClure far better qualified than I, and I was surprised to think I should be chosen in this Juncture. before him — and to my shame may I speak it I
am not a church member, and have the utmost,
reason to fear I have no grace — and who will license
such a wretch to preach — it's a thing I little expected to enter upon
yet, and have not given my thoughts immedi‐ately to it — I
cant think it is my Duty to go in that
capacity, and if I do it will be wholly out of deference
to other Peoples Judgment, and quite contrary to my own — I could offer
many more Objections but I forbear,
please to pardon my plainness — I thought it my Duty to tell my Mind —
Reverend Sir I am your
most
obliged unworthy Pupil
Levi Frisbie
From Levi Frisbie
April 23rd 1768
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