Levi Frisbie, letter, to Eleazar Wheelock, 1767 June 12
Date12 June, 1767
Call Number767362.2
abstractFrisbie writes that his poor health prevents him from doing the work for which Wheelock educated him.
handwritingHandwriting is formal and clear.
paperLarge sheet folded in half to make four pages is in good condition, with light staining, creasing and wear.
inkDark-brown ink bleeds through the paper.
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The cause which
moves me to address you with these lines
is what gives one much Trouble, and Anxiety.
I understand Sir you are apprehensive (and perhaps
not without reason) that my Circumstances
are such, particularly respecting my Health,
that I shall not be able to answer the End you
had in veiw when you received me into the School.
and perhaps Sir you may think I aimed to
deceive you concerning the state of my Health
and Constitution. But I am confident I can
say with a good Conscience that I endeavoured
to tell you the whole Truth, and if I did not it
was because I was deceived about myself: for
I dared not neither would it have been for my In‐
terest to have dissembled, in an Affair of so great
importance; for thereby I should have exposed myself
to much Blame: I cant but have a grateful
Sense of your many undeserved Favour. and desire
to return you my sincere Thanks for them; especially
for the pains you have taken to instruct me in to the
Nature and importance of this great Affair which I
have engaged in. I have considered much upon what you
have said to me lately respecting my Health etc. — — — —
and am greatly concerned to find that my health is very
poor my Constitution so weak that a small thing overcomes
me: I ought to have a sense of the frowns of Providence
in denying me that measure of Health which is necessary
for me in order to my being serviceable in this affar. And
I should be wholly discouraged if it was not, that the
work is God's and that he can make use of me if he
pleases in his Work not withstanding my weakness
and Inability, for he often makes use of the most
Despicable means to accomplish his Designs that
his Power and goodness may more clearly appear.
But yet I cant be certain it is my duty under my
present Circumstances to devote myself to this Serv‐
ice. And Several things cause me to doubt whether
I can consistent with my Duty to God and myself
proceed any further in this Affair. To tell you the truth
Sir I am much discouraged, and Things seem to look with
a dark aspect upon me; there seems to be something in
the way to my serving God and his cause in this Affair.
Mr. Johnson tells me that the Indians make no allow‐
ance for a Mans not being well, and if he cant go
through fire and Water, they esteem him as a
poor mean fellow, and if one gets their Disresp‐
ect, and ill will, he is under no great advantages
to do them Good; and had I never so Strong a Cons‐
titution, were my Hopes of doing Good ever so great,
and could I ever so consistent with right and Jus‐
tice, proceed in this affair I should not choose to, with‐
out it was entirely agreeable to your Will, without
you thought there was a prospect of my answer-
ing your Expectations. For I know it must
necessarily give you a great deal of anxiety, and
troubles to think you had expended Christs
Money upon me to no good purpose. Sir I
beg you to act with the Strictest Regard to the
Interest of Christ and the Good of the School whether
it may please me or not, for notwithstanding I
esteem the thing as highly as ever, yet I Shall freely
submit to your Superior Judgment in the Matter.
if I have been to blame in the affair I desire to
be Heartily Sorry for it, and would humbly beg your
pardon, and desire your assistance both by your pray‐
er and direction. but I fear I have already trans‐
gressed upon your Patience: so beg liberty to Subscribe my‐
self
moves me to address you with these lines
is what gives one much Trouble, and Anxiety.
I understand Sir you are apprehensive (and perhaps
not without reason) that my Circumstances
are such, particularly respecting my Health,
that I shall not be able to answer the End you
had in veiw when you received me into the School.
and perhaps Sir you may think I aimed to
deceive you concerning the state of my Health
and Constitution. But I am confident I can
say with a good Conscience that I endeavoured
to tell you the whole Truth, and if I did not it
was because I was deceived about myself: for
I dared not neither would it have been for my In‐
terest to have dissembled, in an Affair of so great
importance; for thereby I should have exposed myself
to much Blame: I cant but have a grateful
Sense of your many undeserved Favour. and desire
to return you my sincere Thanks for them; especially
for the pains you have taken to instruct me in to the
Nature and importance of this great Affair which I
have engaged in. I have considered much upon what you
have said to me lately respecting my Health etc. — — — —
and am greatly concerned to find that my health is very
poor my Constitution so weak that a small thing overcomes
me: I ought to have a sense of the frowns of Providence
in denying me that measure of Health which is necessary
for me in order to my being serviceable in this affar. And
I should be wholly discouraged if it was not, that the
work is God's and that he can make use of me if he
pleases in his Work not withstanding my weakness
and Inability, for he often makes use of the most
Despicable means to accomplish his Designs that
his Power and goodness may more clearly appear.
But yet I cant be certain it is my duty under my
present Circumstances to devote myself to this Serv‐
ice. And Several things cause me to doubt whether
I can consistent with my Duty to God and myself
proceed any further in this Affair. To tell you the truth
Sir I am much discouraged, and Things seem to look with
a dark aspect upon me; there seems to be something in
the way to my serving God and his cause in this Affair.
Mr. Johnson tells me that the Indians make no allow‐
ance for a Mans not being well, and if he cant go
through fire and Water, they esteem him as a
poor mean fellow, and if one gets their Disresp‐
ect, and ill will, he is under no great advantages
to do them Good; and had I never so Strong a Cons‐
titution, were my Hopes of doing Good ever so great,
and could I ever so consistent with right and Jus‐
tice, proceed in this affair I should not choose to, with‐
out it was entirely agreeable to your Will, without
you thought there was a prospect of my answer-
ing your Expectations. For I know it must
necessarily give you a great deal of anxiety, and
troubles to think you had expended Christs
Money upon me to no good purpose. Sir I
beg you to act with the Strictest Regard to the
Interest of Christ and the Good of the School whether
it may please me or not, for notwithstanding I
esteem the thing as highly as ever, yet I Shall freely
submit to your Superior Judgment in the Matter.
if I have been to blame in the affair I desire to
be Heartily Sorry for it, and would humbly beg your
pardon, and desire your assistance both by your pray‐
er and direction. but I fear I have already trans‐
gressed upon your Patience: so beg liberty to Subscribe my‐
self
your most obliged
Humble servant
Levi Frisbie
Levi Frisbie
For Mr. Wheelock
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