I
Jacob Woolley acknowledge I have been scandalously guilty
of several
gross Breaches of the Law of God. Particularly, I have
been scandalously guilty of drinking strong Drink to excess;
And of being in a very sinful
passion of Anger, which I showed by
a very boisterous Behavior, doubling and
swinging my fists, stamping
with my Feet, and many violent Motions and
gestures of Body, attempting
to throw the Bed and Bed clothes out of the Chamber window; And also
by very vile and
profane Language, daring God Almighty to damn
me if I were guilty according to what
had been reported of me
[when at the same Time the Report was true] and frequently challenging
of God to it, saying I did not care if I was damned, threatening Vengeance
upon the Boy who had
reported what he had of me, saying I would
be revenged if I were damned for it. And thus I persisted in
Imprecations of Damnation upon myself, and blasphemous Treatment
of the sacred Name, against the much repeated and most forcible and
kind and urgent Entreaties of
Mr. Wheelock and
Mr.
Lesley, in opposition
to whose Entreaties to spare and desist from my irreverent and abusive
use
and Treatment of the sacred Names, I increased in it with the more
Fury and Violence; And also in attempting to go away with
[gap: worn_edge][guess: out] Leave or Advice from
Mr. Wheelock, under whose Conduct Providence
has placed me, and pursuing that design in a very tumultuous Manner,
which was aggravated by this circumstance, that it was on Saturday
Evening, Time observed as Holy by
Mr. Wheelock and Family, who
were kept in a Ruffle 'til late in the Night; And also by
many undutiful, proud, and ungrateful expressions towards
Mr. Wheelock
And all this has been greatly aggravated by the peculiar
Obligations I am under to God and Man, by whose
goodness
and their
Charity I have been so
distinguished from all my Nation
Hereby I have much dishonoured God, wounded the Hearts
of my kindest Friends and Benefactors, brought great dishonour
upon the Christian Name, and done much to discourage
and cool
that Christian Charity, which has so remarkably appeared of late
towards my perishing Savage Bretheren, and particularly much
to discourage
and hurt the interest
and
progress of
this School, in which
I have
received so great Favours, and which I am under so
great Obligations by all possible Means to encourage and promote.
I
I desire to be humbled in the dust for these things before
God and Man, and to implore the divine Pardon and
forgiveness
through the Blood of Christ. I ask forgiveness of
Mr. Wheelock,
Mr.
Lesley, and of the whole Family and
School, and of all
my kind Benefactors who shall hear of it. And desire they will
pray to God for me that Iniquity after all Endeavors used with
me may not prove my Ruin — and I do solemnly warn all the
Members of
this school
against Pride of Heart and a sensual
course of Living,
and that they take Warning by my Falls. not to imitate my Example