Perhaps you little think what pain and Sorrow of Heart
I have had on hearing of your repeated and aggravated fall, but I am comfort
-ed a little with
the Hope that God has given you Repentance, but I conclude,
unless
the manifestation of your Repentance has been very Public, Clear, Strong,
and evident to everybody, your
usefulness is near at an End where you are.
And it may be one design of God in leaving you thus to fall has been to reprove
your staying at Home, and in a sort compel
you to go abroad among remote Tribes,
or else quit your Ministry, which I conclude you will never be easy in doing while
the Nations are lying in wickedness
and Perishing for lack of Vision. You may
remember I early mentioned to you, your going among the
Onondagas, or
some other Nations there in that
quarter, and said something about
your taking your
brother
David
and Settling your Families in that Country, and I felt some concern
that
you declined it as I thought, and have always feared
that
you was not to usefully
employed as you might be among remote Tribes. Mr. Woodward informs
me of your having understood me otherwise, which must certainly have been
through some mistake — I also always believed your
brother
David did wrong in
leaving that Cause in the
wilderness where he was so acceptable and had so wide
a Door opened to him for usefulness —
I now propose to you
and him that if you will remove and Settle
in any of the Tribes where you may find the best Prospect of usefulness
I will allow him as much as any of the Schoolmasters have who are em-
-ployed among any of the Tribes on the Sea Shore, by the
Boston Commiss-ioners, and will do for you
what Shall be reasonable, and will provide a good
Interpreter to go with
you in the Spring — Please to let me see you or hear
from you as soon as possible — This is an astonishing Day of Gods Grace and
the out
pouring of his Spirit upon
this Seminary, here you may see the beginning and bud
-ding of the
New Jerusalem. The first appearance of it was upon our getting
into a Settled and Quiet State about a month ago. the Affairs of
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with so joyful
and
encouraging an aspect, before, as they now do. I hope
in a little time you will have opportunity to see scores of your
tawny Breth
-ren, nourished by the Breasts of this
Alma Mater — I can’t tell you
what loads of
sorrow I have been bowed down under, on account of the falls and miscarriages of so many on
whom I had dependence
under
God as instruments to help forward the
great design before me. God has been
my helper or I should have sunk indeed under
the weight — My dear Friend, I have had and
born loads on your
account. I long to know whether God has truly opened
your Eyes to see the wounds you
have given the
blessed
Redeemer? And
whether
you have and do look upon him whom
you have pierced
and
mourn for what
you have done as for an only Son? And
what Revenge you are exercising upon and towards
yourself in a way of self denial and
cross-bearing? My dear Friend dont now add to the offence by setting
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discouraged
and say there is no hope of your
future
usefulness. no my friend resolve on revenge on your Lusts,
and especially your Pride, and upon the
Father
and
author of them. My heart
aches for you
enough to besmear
this Paper with my heart's Blood if there were a proper way to express my sorrow, and a way that
would
do you any good — but I conclude with Love to you
and
your
wife, and am for Christs sake