Sarah Simon, letter, to Eleazar Wheelock, 1769 [month unknown] 16

Author Simon, Sarah

Date1769

ms number769900.1

abstractSimon writes to Wheelock that she fears she is irretrievably in the grip of the Devil.

handwritingHandwriting is small, yet largely clear and legible.

paperLarge sheet folded in half to make four pages is in good condition, with light staining, creasing and wear.

inkBrown-black.

Modernized Version Deletions removed; additions added in; modern spelling and capitalization added; unfamiliar abbreviations expanded.

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Rev. and Honoured Sir
I have been this Some time back thinking upon things of religion; and I think they do not look So plain to me as I have Seen them and I have great ma ny wicked thoughts and I do not know what I Shall do if I do not ask somebody's advice about it for I feel very bad about it; I have thought a great while that I would Come and talk with the Doctor but then I thought again that it will not do me any good; for I have talked with the Doctor great many times and If I do not mind them words that has been already Said to me I Shall have the more to answer for; So I thought I would not go nowhere to hear anything or no ask any questions about any
but I fear it is the works of Satan; and I have [illegible][guess: mind] it 'til I am undone forever and I believe that Satan is [illegible][guess: besser] with me than anybody else in this world Even when I go to Read he takes all my thoughts away upon something else and my temptation he lays before me I thought I never would not tell anybody of it but as I was at home this afternoon all alone I was thinking upon these things and wondering what I should do and I thought of a book I [illegible][guess: heard] Read once that when anyone was at lost about any thing they must go to their — minister and inquire of them and there will lead you into it, and then I think it is my duty to Come and take your advice. and I what want to know
is this am I incurable or not; the devil is [illegible][guess: just] ready Sometimes to make me think that because I have made a perversion and do not always keep upright. and it seems to me all the true Christian never meets with Such a struggle with Satan as I do and so that makes me fear that I am a Christian because the Devil is so be[illegible: [guess: s]]e with me more than he is with any one else. for wh en I go to try to pray he tell me that it will not do any good neither will it merit anything so he tries everything to put me back. and o what shall I do it seem to me I could write all this right to you if it would do any good but i fear it will not. —
So I desire to subscribe myself your most humble and Ever Dutiful Servant Sarah Simon
From Sarah Simons 16th 1769.
for — the Rev. Mr. Eleazar Wheelock DD at Lebanon
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