Sarah Simon, letter, to Eleazar Wheelock, 1769 [month unknown] 16
Date1769
ms number769900.1
abstractSimon writes to Wheelock that she fears she is irretrievably in the grip of the Devil.
handwritingHandwriting is small, yet largely clear and legible.
paperLarge sheet folded in half to make four pages is in good condition, with light staining, creasing and wear.
inkBrown-black.
Modernized Version Deletions removed; additions added in; modern spelling and capitalization added; unfamiliar abbreviations expanded.
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I have been this Some time back thinking upon things of religion; and I think they
do not look So plain to me as I have Seen them and I have great ma ny wicked thoughts and I do not know what I Shall do if I do not
ask
somebody's
advice about
it for I feel very bad about it; I have thought a great while that I would Come and talk with the
Doctor but then I thought again that it will not do me any good;
for I have talked with the Doctor
great many times and If I do not mind them words that has been already Said to me I Shall have the more to answer for; So I thought I would not go nowhere to
hear
anything
or no ask any questions about any
but I fear it is the works of Satan; and I have [illegible][guess: mind] it 'til I am undone forever and I believe that
Satan is [illegible][guess: besser] with me than
anybody
else in this world Even when I go to Read he takes all my thoughts away upon something
else and my temptation he lays before me I thought I never would
not tell
anybody of it but as I was at home this afternoon all alone I was thinking upon these things and wondering what I should do and I thought of a book I [illegible][guess: heard] Read once that when anyone was at lost about any thing they
must go to their —
minister and inquire of them and there
will lead you into it, and then I think it is my duty to
Come and take your advice. and I what want to know
is this am I
incurable or not; the devil is [illegible][guess: just]
ready Sometimes to make me think that because I have made a perversion and do not always keep upright. and it seems to me all the true Christian never
meets with Such a struggle with Satan as I do and so that makes me fear that I am a Christian
because the Devil is so be[illegible: [guess: s]]e with me more than he is with any one else. for wh en I go to try to pray he tell me that it will not do any good neither will it merit
anything
so he tries
everything to put me back. and o what shall I do it seem to me I could write all this right to you if it would do any good but i fear it will
not. —
So I desire to subscribe
myself your most humble and Ever
Dutiful
Servant
Sarah
Simon
From Sarah Simons
16th 1769.
for —
the Rev.
Mr.
Eleazar
Wheelock
DD
at
Lebanon
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