Mary Secutor, confession of drunkeness, 1767 December 27



abstractMary Secutor confesses to drunkenness and lewd conduct.

handwritingDocument is written in Eleazar Wheelock's hand, exclusive of the signature.

paperSingle small sheet is in fair-to-good condition, with light-to-moderate creasing, yellowing and wear.


signatureRalph Wheelock and Bezaleel Woodward sign as witnesses. Mary Secutor’s signature is likely in her own hand.

Modernized Version Deletions removed; additions added in; modern spelling and capitalization added; unfamiliar abbreviations expanded.

I Mary Secutor acknowledge, and desire to do it with Shame and blushing before God and all who are acquainted with my Sins, that I have been repeatedly Scandalously guilty of the Sin of drunkenness, and particularly last Evening being the Evening following the Lords Day December 27. 1767. I went into the School while I was intoxicated with Liquor and there behaved myself in a lewd and very immodest manner among the School Boys, I also in a vile manner profaned the sacred name of God. Whereby I have brought Reproach and Ruin upon myself my Character and my precious Soul, have grieved the Heart of my Reverend Patron Who has been unwearied in his Labours of Love and Care and kindness for me and for the School, I have brought irreparable Reproach upon the School and the important cause which I ought to have regarded more than even my own Life, and have awfully disappointed and blasted all the hopes that have been conceived that I might in my Place have borne my part in furthering the Same. I have Set a most Ill Example before the scholars which if they follow they can expect nothing but that the causes of God denounced against Such will take place upon them, and that
that with me they must Bear their part in that eternal misery to Which I Stand justly condemned. but most of all is the wound which I have given, to, and the Reproach I have Cast, upon the Name of God, and the cause of the dear Redeemer — this I have done against multiplied learning counsels, instructions and all appointed means and Endeavours from Day to day used with me. I desire to humble myself before God and man for What I have done and implore divine pardon through the Blood of Christ. I also ask forgiveness of the Rev. Dr. Wheelock, and of all his family and School and of all who are knowing to my heinous offenses — and I promise by divine Grace to walk humbly and in all respects circumspectly, for time to come — and it is my full purpose to leave off the use of all Spirituous Liquors for time to come — I confess it is just if I am sent away with disgrace from this School as unworthy the Honour of being a member of it, but if it may consist with the Glory of God and the Reputation of this School I earnestly and humbly desire I may yet be continued upon trial, and if my fruits Shall be becoming a penitent, that I may be restored and my Scandalous Crimes be concealed as much as may be from my Nation and from the world.
Mary Secutor {Ralph Wheelock {Bezaleel Woodward [guess: Test][illegible]
Mary Secuters Confession January or February — 1768