How glad should I be to see you, but I patiently
wait 'til God has done with you where you are.
The imprudent Letters which
were wrote you by
Mr.
Eells have
occasioned me much Trouble. and seemed for a while as though
they would unhinge the whole Affair — I charitably. believe
he meant no more than to pursue the Plan laid by our
Board of Commissioners before you sailed, and to take that Advantage
of Trade which Somebody must have upon that Plan, and
why not he as well as another? Yet the Letters as
they appeared
were shocking indeed. I knew nothing of them 'til I had the copy
of them by
Mr. Keen, with advice that my Bill in
Favour of
M.r Breed was protested, on that account — I had no other Refuge
but God alone. it occasioned me a long, tedious, and
fruitless,
Journey to
Portsmouth, before I
had recovered from a fit of
sickness so as to be able to ride 20 miles in a Day. but God has
helped me through
all, and the cause has not Suffered greatly
by it, on this side the Water —
But I suspect there is yet Some jealousies remaining in
the Mind,
[gap: hole][guess: o]f the
Gentlemen of the Trust which it concerns you
fully to remove.
Mr.
Eells wrote
Mr. Whitefield that which I hoped would be Satis-
-factory
[gap: hole][guess: b]ut have never
heard whether it reached him —
Mr. K[gap: hole][guess: ee]n
writes me that it is generally understood
and that you
have declared that
the Trust have right to pay or protest Bills as
they
Shall think advisable; but I presume you haven't well digested
that matter; be sure you haven't had the Experience which I have
very timeously had of the Danger, and risk upon that Plan, nor
do I know who you will find willing to be an Agent on
this side
the water, upon that Plan, so long as his own interest is pawned
to defray all charges.
The Gentlemen of the Trust
showed a laudable, and truly christian
Integrity towards the Redeemers cause; as the matter appeared to
them. I never blamed them so much as in a
Thought though I was
myself so
[gap: hole][guess: gr]eat and the
only Sufferer. But I can assure you I did
not
not always feel as I should, while I was daily expecting the protested
Bill, and thought on all the consequences which would likely
ensue
—
the support of the missionaries, who ask for no other Reward for their services, must
be sure. I think that less than that can't be right, nor pleasing to God; unless
they were able and willing to Support themselves. And I dont see how
the Affair can be accommodated without an Incorporation, or at least a
Trust here. — I have been turning my thoughts and weighing every man
man within my Acquaintance, and design Soon to fix upon a number
and make a New Will and submit it to the censures of my
honoured Patrons the Gentlemen of the Trust.
My son
Ralph after such a long and dark Cloud as he has been under
with respect to his health, has now a prospect of enjoying that blessing
to a good Degree. He is in high Spirits for Indian Affairs, he under
stands that business, and has a talent at governing Indians beyond
any man I can employ. I don't know what God intends for him, but
at present he is a Comfort and Help to me. it may be he will be the
man to conduct this Affair when I have
done. Indeed I know of no
man at present who can do it better. but I wait upon God to dire
[gap: tear][guess: ct]
[illegible][guess: and I] Love to wait, and hope and trust in him alone.
[illegible][guess: Your and]
Mr. Occoms Sons with me are well Your Family were so n
[gap: tear][guess: ot long ago.] give my Love
to
Mr. Occom I want to See him, does he k
[gap: tear][guess: eep]
[illegible][guess: clear of] that Indian distemper,
Pride. if you see anything of it, ad
[gap: tear][guess: vise] him that he had better have a rattlesnake in his bosom. I do
[gap: tear][guess: n't] write
this because I suppose he is worse than myself but becau
[gap: tear][guess: se] I
have known So much of the mischiefs of that Evil and know his Temp-
-tations to be very great. oh! watch and pray.
My dear Brother, I love you right well. and
[gap: tear][guess: a]m
P.S. I trust you will See my Letters
herewith transmitted to
the Trust
and to
Mr. Whitefield. to which I refer you
for Intelligence. My physician Say I must Soon quit all unless I will
abate of my continual Labour but what Shall I do? I employ one
pen besides my own continually and Sometimes two, and have Done so
for many months.