and now you
say I am too bad to live in the House for one
of my missteps
therefore I must leave you
and
your School that very
Day and go weeping in the Road homeward — Now
David
consider a Little. is this Just comely and reasonable Treat
ment of me. Have I said
worse of you or to you
than
that I was
afraid that
the
[illegible][guess: Bid] of
[guess: your]
[illegible]
aspired
after
such
grandeur as was not
for the
glory of God
and
could not consist with the good of the
general
design in View — that
when I had given you leave to get every
thing that
you Wanted for the
design
and told you I begrudged
you
nothing
that was necessary for you — that
you
should affect to clothe
yourself
and
Hannah like Courtiers and
when
you knew that I had been already
reproached
through
the Country, as I have been only for letting
you wear
an old Velvet Coat that was given to you — I told you
that
the Eyes
of All
Europe
and
America
were upon you
and me too. and
the Eyes of
thousands
who are unfriendly and will not fail to Catch at any
occasion to reproach me and
the
design —I told you it was no
interest of mine but only the
honour
and
interest of Christ
that I was
pleading for, and
the
success of that
cause
which has been so long on my
[illegible]
and in which I have so much laboured
and worn out myself — and
which certain
ly as nearly concerns you as me to labour to promote — did you
not when I was only inquiring
whether it was prudent
and
best for you to
have
so many as 4 pair of shoes at once rise up and
with a very unbe
coming Air go out the Room and Say I will have no shoes I'll wear
Indian shoes — and how you
and
Hannah
have Spent your free Hours
yesterday and
today I know not — Or how you will live or
when
you will serve
together I know not I wish
your
setting out were
more in the
meekness
and Humility of Christ — as for my own part great
as the
prospects of your
usefulness are, (and they are very great
if you will take God with you.) I dont at all desire you should return
to
Oneida
with
your
present Tempers — nor am I at all afraid but I
can fully Vindicate my own
Reputation, take what
course
you will —
I suppose
you cant reasonably think it unjust if the Whole and plain Truth comes to the Light of the world, if I am put upon my own Vindication — nor do I think you can feel very easy if you
should go 'til
you return to me again which I promise
myself
you will do as Soon as you return to God. My Heart is the
same and as full of kindness
and Good will towards you as ever it has been. and I am as ready to do anything
that will honour
Christ
and
promote the
salvation of the Souls of the poor Indians as ever I was — but I have no notion of sending any man who is aiming to set up himself
instead of Christ Jesus as the
object of their
worship
and
when
you Will appear
the Same as you
have heretofore done
you Will find me the
same