Yours of
Janr 22: I receivd but
a few Days ago, wherein You Speak of mu
^c^h
Sorrow on my account, I am obliged to you
So far as it is agreable to god, You Seem to think
that it is a sort of Reproof from God, that I
was
Left to Stray, for my Staying at Home so much,
But I don’t think with
You, — God woud Certain
ly gave me Strenght Sufficient to go Such Long
Journeis, but I han’t been able to Ride far
Now two whole Years, and I have been Con‐
fin’d to my Houſe good Deal this Spring, I am
greatly Exerciſ’d with my old Pains — As to my Pre‐
ſent Standing with the Indians, I need not Say
more than this, I am as well, if
not better recei
^vd^ by them than ever, if I woud only Comply with
their Deſire, the Indians
^at^
Mohegan,
groton,
Nahanteck,
Stonington, and even
at
Charlestown in general woud put themſelves un‐
der my Inſtructions — as to my
[illegible] being
under a Miſtake about my and
Davids going
into the wilderneſs I am not, I woud have gone
up and
David too, the
Spring after I got Home
from
England, but
you Said, you had no
money to AſSiſt me with, and You yourſelf
Diſ‐
couragd
David from going, — Indeed I have
always Declin’d to remove my Family into
the wilderneſs, but
David
woud have gone up
to Settle there — had he a proper Encourage‐
ment he woud go now — but he will not go
for what you offer — he has Some
thoughts of
offering his Service to the
Comiſsrs of Boſton to go
into the wilderneſs, if they woud give him
£30 Lawf
per Am he woud go into the wilderneſs with his Family
to Settle — I am very Jealous that inſtead of Your Seme‐
nary Becoming alma Mater, She will be too alba
mater to Suckle the Tawnees, for She is already a
Dorn’d up too much like the Popiſh Virgin Mary
She’ll be Naturally aſham’d to Suckle the Tawnees
for She is already equal in Power Honor and Autho
rity to
and any College in
Europe, I think
your
College has too much wordly
Grandure for the Poor
Indians they’ll never have much benefet of it, — In
So Saying I Speak the general Sentiment of Indians
and Engliſh too in theſe parts;
^a.^
so many of your Miſsi
onaries and School maſters and Indian Scholars
Leaving You and Your Service Confirms me in this
opinion, —
^b^ Your having So many white Scholars
and So
few or no Indian Scholars, gives me great
Diſcouragement — I verily thought once that your
Inſtitution was In
dtended Purely for the poor Indians
with this thought I Chearfully
Ventur’d my Body &
Soul, left my Country my poor Young Family
all my Friends and
Relations, to Sail over the
Boiſterous Seas to
England, to help forward
your
School, Hoping, that it may be a laſting
Bene‐
fet to my poor Tawnee Brethren, with this View
I went a Volunteer — I was quite willing
to
become a Gazing stock, Yea Even a Laughing
Stock, in Strange Countries to
Promote your
Cauſe — we Loudly Proclaimd before Multitudes
of People from Place to Place, that there was a
moſt glorious Proſpect of Spreading the goſpel
of the Lord Jeſus to the furthereſt Savage Nations
in the wilderneſs, thro’ your Inſtitution, we told
them that there were So many Miſsionaries
&
So many Schoolmaſters already Sent out, and
a greater Number woud Soon follow
^[left]a: N.B. none have left me ſince I got a Charter. b. I ha’ no white Charity Scholars but such as ^are^
[illegible]fittg for a miſsion^
But when we got Home behold all the glory had decay
d and now I am afr’aid, we Shall
^be^
Deem’d as Liars and
Deceivers in
Europe, unleſs you gather Indians
quickly to your College, in great Numbers and
not
to have So many Whites in the Charity, — I under
ſtand you have no Indians at Preſent except two or
three Mollatoes — — this I think is quite Contrary to
the Minds of the Donors,
we told them, that we were
Beging for poor Miſerable Indians, — as for my part
I went, purely for the poor Indians, and I
Should be as
ready as ever to promote your School according to my
poor Abilities
^if^ I coud be Convinc’d by ocular Demon‐
ſtration, that your pure Intention is to help, the poor
help
^leſs^ Indians, but as long as you have no Indians,
I am full of Doubts,
— Your writing to
Esqr Thornton to my Diſadvantage and not
^one^ word in my favour,
gave me to think,
that your Indian Scholars had
reaſon to with Draw from You, and Your Miſsio
naries and Schol, Maſters too, the opinion of many
white People about here is that You have been
Scheeming
altogather, and that it was a Po
[illegible]llicy to
Send me over to
England, for
(Say they) now
they don’t Care any
^thing^ ab
^o^ut you, You have anſwerd
their Ends, now you may Sink or Swim it is all
one to them, this makes
me think of what that
great man of god Said to me,
Mr Whitefield, juſt
before I left
England in the
^hearing of^ Some gentlemen —
ah, Says he,
[illegible]You have been a fine Tool to get
Money
for them, but when you get home, they
won’t Regard you the’ll S
[illegible][guess: e]t you a Drift, —
I am ready to believe it Now — I am going to Say
Some
thing further, which is very Diſagreeable
Modiſty
woud forbid me, but I am Conſtraind
So to write, — Many Gentlemen in
England
and in this Country too, Say, if
^you^ had not this
Indian
Bait, you woud not Collected a quarter
of the Money you did, one gentleman in Parti
cular in
England Said to me, if
^he^ hadn’t Seen
my face he woudn’t have given
[illegible][guess: ye]
happence
but now I have
£50 freely — This
one Conſideration
gives me great Quietneſs, I think I went to
En‐
gland with Honeſt Heart, I think I have dont
that which I think was my Duty to Do — I mig
^ht^ write more but I have no time, — I wiſh I
coud give you one viſit, to have a ful talk
but you got so
^far^ up, I Shall never be able
—
if I am under any Miſtake, Pleaſe to enlight
en me, — I am better in Health than I’ve
been
and my Family is well thro’ Divine Favour
Pleaſe to
^give^ my Comp
ts to all under your Care
and Accept Duty from
PS I have not wrote this Sort to any one
in
England, I Chuſe to let you know my
mind firſt
SO