Perhaps y.
o little think w.
t pain & Sorrow of Heart
I have had on hear.
g of y.
r repeated & aggravated fall, but I am comfort
=ed a little w
th
y.
e Hope y.
t God has given y.
o Repentance, but I conclude,
unleſs
y.
e manifestation of y.
r Repentance has been very Public, Clear, Strong,
& evident to every body, y.
r
usefulneſs is near at an End where y
o are.
And it may be one design of God in leaving y.
o thus to fall has been to reprove
y.
r staying at Home, & in a sort compell
y.
o to go abroad among remote Tribes,
or else quit y.
r Ministry, w
h I conclude y.
o will never be easie in doing while
y.
e Nations are lying in wickedneſs
& Perishing for lack of Vision. y.
o may
remember I early mentioned to y.
o, y.
r going among y.
e
Onondagues, or
some other Nations y
re in y.
t
quater, & said something ab.
t
y.
r taking y.
r
Broth.
r
David
& Settling y.
r Families in y.
t Country, & I felt ſome concern
y.
t
y.
o declined it as I tho't, & have always feard
y.
t
y.
o was not to usefully
imployed as y.
o might be among remote Tribes. M.
r Woodward informs
me of y.
r having understood me otherwise, w
h must certainly have been
thro’ some mistake — I also always believed y.
r
B.
r
David did wrong in
leaving y.
t Cause in y.
e
wilderneſs where he was so acceptable & had so wide
a Door op’ned to him for usefullneſs —
I now propose to y.
o
& him y.
t if y.
o will remove & Settle
in any of y.
e Tribes where y
o may find y.
e best Prospect of usefullneſs
I will allow him as much as any of y.
e Schoolmasters have who are im=
=ployed among any of y.
e Tribes on y.
e Sea Shore, by y.
e
Boston Commiſs=ioners, & will do for y.
o
w.
t Shall be reasonable, & will provide a good
Interpreter to go w
th
y.
o in y.
e Spring — Please to let me see y
o or hear
from y
o as soon as poſsible — This is an aſtonish.
g Day of Gods Grace &
y.
e out
pouring of his Spirit upon
y.s Seminary, here y.
o may see y.
e beginning & bud
=ding of y
e
N
w Jerusalem. The first appearance of it was upon our getting
into a Settled & Quiet State ab.
t a month ago. the Affairs of
[illegible]y.s Seminary never look’d
w
th so joyfull
&
encourag.
g an aspect, before, as y
a now do. I hope
in a little time y
o will have oppertunity to see scores of y.
r
Tawney Breth
=ren, nourished by y.
e Breasts of y.
s
Alma Mater — I can’t tell y.
o
w.
t loads of
sorrow I have been bowed down und.
r, on acco.
t of y.
e falls & miscarriages of so many on
w
m I had dependance
und.
r
G.
d as Instrum
ts to help forward y.
e
g.
t design before me. G.
d has been
my helper or I should have sunk indeed und.
r
y.
e weight — My D.
r Friend, I have had &
born loads on y.
r
Acco.
t. I long to know whether G
d has truly opned
y.
r Eyes to see y.
e wounds y.
o have given y.
e
Bleſs.
d
Redeem.
r? &
wheth.
r
y.
o have & do look upon him w
m
y.
o have peirced
&
mourn for w.
t
y.
o have done as for an only Son? &
w.
t Revenge y.
o are exercis.
g upon & towards
y.
rself in a way of self denial &
croſsbear
g? My D.
r Friend dont now add to y.
e offence by set.
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discourag’d
& say y
re is no hope of y.
r
futer
usefullneſs. no my F.
d resolve on revenge on y.
r Lusts,
& especially y.
r Pride, & upon y.
e
Fath.
r
&
auth.
r of them. My H.
t
akes for y.
o
eno’f to besmere
y.
s Paper w
th my H
ts Blood if y.
r were a proper way to expreſs my sorrow, & a way y.
t
w
d do y.
o any good — but I conclude w
th Love to y.
o
&
y.
r
wife, and am for Christs sake