Sarah Simon, letter, to Eleazar Wheelock, 1769 [month unknown] 16

ms-number769900.1

doi
10.1349/ddlp.913

abstractSimon writes to Wheelock that she fears she is irretrievably in the grip of the Devil.

handwritingHandwriting is small, yet largely clear and legible.

paperLarge sheet folded in half to make four pages is in good condition, with light staining, creasing and wear.

inkBrown-black.

Re.:end and Hon:.rd Sir
I have been this Some time back thinking upon things of Religon; and I think thay donot look So ^plain to me^ as I have Seen them ^and^ I have grat ma ny wicked thoughts and I donot know what I Shall do if I donot aſk ſombodys adviſe about ^[left]it^ for I feel very bad about it; I have thought a gr te while that I would Come and talk ywith ^the^ Dr but then I thought again that it will not do me any good; for I have talkd with the Dr gra[illegible][guess: n]t many times and If I do not mind them words that has been alraday Said tome I Shall have the more to an ſwer for; So I thought I would not dgo [illegible]^no^where to here any thing ^or^ no aſk any qu:.ns about any
but I fear it is the works of Saton; and I have [illegible][guess: mind] it till I am undone for Ever and I be[illegible]live that Saton is [illegible][guess: beſſer] with me them any body els in this world Even when I go to Read he taks all my thoughts away upon Somthing Els and my temptation he las before me I thought I [illegible]never would not till any body of it but as I was at home this after noon all alone I was thinking upon thise things and wondering what[illegible] I ſhould do and I thought of a book I [illegible][guess: hered] Read onſe that when any one was at loſt about any thing thay muſt go to lhare — minſter and inquire of [illegible]them and there ^will^ lead you into it, and then I think it is my duty to Come and take your adviſe. and I ^what^ want to know
is this am ^I^ uncureable or fnot; the devil is [illegible][guess: jiſt] Redy Sometimes to ^make me^ think that be caſe I have made a perfertion and do not ^alwas^ keep upright. and itſeems to me all the true Chriſtan never meats with Such a ſtruggte with ſaton as I do and ſo that maks me fear that I am a Chriſtan becaſe the Devil is ſo be[illegible: [guess: ſ]]e with me more than he is with any one Els. for wh en I d go to try to pray he till me that it will not do andy good nither will it merat any thing ſo he trys Every thing to put me back. and o what ſhall I do it seam to me I could writ all this right to you if it would do any good but i fear it will [illegible] not. —
ſo I Deſire to ſubcrib my ſilfe your moſt humble and Ever Dutyfull Searvent ſarah ſimon
From Sarah Simons 16th 1769.
for — M.: the Re:end M:r Elezer Wheelak ^[below]DD^ att Lebanon
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