Levi Frisbie, letter, to Eleazar Wheelock, 1767 June 12

Author Frisbie, Levi

Date12 June, 1767

ms number767362.2

abstractFrisbie writes that his poor health prevents him from doing the work for which Wheelock educated him.

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Revd & Honrd Sir — — — — —
The Cauſe which moves me to addreſs you with theſe lines is what gives one much Trouble, & Anxiety. I understand Sir you are apprehensive (& perhaps not without reaſon) that my Circumstances are such, perticularly respecting my Health, that I shall not be able to answer the End you had in veiw when you receiv'd me into the School. and perhaps Sir you may think I aim'd to deceive you concerning the state of my Health and Constitution. But I am confident I can say with a good Conscience that I endeavourd to tell you the whole Truth, and if I did not it was becauſe I was deceiv'd about myself: for I durst not neither would it have been for my In‐terest to have discembled, in an Affa^i^r of so great importance; for thereby I should have expoſd myself to much Blame: I cant but have a grateful Sense of your many undeservd Favour. & desire
to return you my sincere Thanks for them; especially for the pains you have taken to instruct me in to the Nature & importance of this great Affair which I have engag'd in. I have considerd much upon what you have said to me lately respecting my Health &c — — — — and am greatly concernd to find that my health is very poor my Constitution so weak that a small thing over comes me: I ougt to have a Senſe of the frowns of Providence in denying me that measure of Health which is necſsary for me in order to my being servisable in this affar. And I should be wholly descourag'd if it was not, that the work is God's and that he can make uſe of me if he pleaſes in his Work not withstanding my weakneſs and Inability, for he often makes uſe of the most Despicable means to accompliſh his Designs that his Power & Goodneſs may more clearly appear. But yet I cant be certain it is my duty under my present Circumstances to devote myself to this Serv‐ice. And Several things cauſe me to doubt whether I can consistent with my Duty to God and my self proceed any futrther in this Affair. To tell you the truth Sir I am much descouragd, & Things seem to look with a dark aſpect upon me; there seemes to be some thing in the way to my serving God and his Cauſe in this Affair. M.r Johnson tells me that the Indians make no allow‐ance for a Mans not being well, and if he cant go
thro' fier and Water, they esteem him as a poor mean fellow, and if one gets their Disresp‐ect, and Illwill, he is under no great advantages to do them Good; and had I never so Strong a Cons‐titution, were my Hopes of doing Good ever so great, and could I ever so consistent with right and Jus‐tice, proceed in this affair I should not chuſe to, with‐out it was intirely agreeable to your Will, without you[illegible] thought there was a proſpect of my answer- ing your Expectations. For I know it must neceſsarily give you a great deal of axc^i^ety, and troubles to think you had expended Christs Money upon me to no good purpoſe. Sir I beg you to act with the Strictest Regard to the Interest of Christ and the Good of the School whether it may pleaſe me or not, for notwithstanding I esteem the thing as highly as ever, yet I Shall freely submit to your Superior Judgment in the Matter. if I have been to blame in the affair I desire to be Heartily Sorry for it, and would humbly beg your Perdon, and desire your aſsistance both by your pray‐er and direction. but I fear I have already trans‐greſsd ^upon^ your Patience: so beg liberty to Subscribe my‐self
your most Obligd y [illegible]Humble Servt Levi Friſbie
From Levi Frisbie June 12.th 1767 To the – Rev.d Mr E. Wheelock Connecticut
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