David Fowler, letter, to Eleazar Wheelock, 1767 March 17
Date17 March, 1767
abstractFowler writes to apologize for his previous letter, which he wrote in anger at Kirtland’s condescending treatment, and to request that Kirtland no longer have or exercise authority over him.
RepositoryRauner Special Collections Library, Dartmouth College.
Call Number767217.1
handwritingHandwriting is bold and legible; the nib of the pen appears to change midway through one recto.
paperLarge sheet folded in half to make four pages is in good condition, with light staining, creasing and wear.
inkBlack.
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Rev., and honoured Sir,
presumptuous Letter; Which I believe has given
you much Sorrow and Trouble of Mind. — For I was in
a very bad frame of Mind; occasioned by Mr. Kirtlands
resuming too much of greatness before Company
he appeared to me, that he wanted to show what
great man he was that he could order us about
where and how he pleased; this soon stuck in
my Crop; and at this time Mr. Kirtland had
Letters come to hand and none for me; this increased my
anger, and in the midst of my passion I wrote
your Letter I indeed wrote whatsoever come
out first; I hardly know what. I was writing
about, nor can I now tell what I wrote, for
as soon as I finished writing I seal it up —
but I remember some harsh Word in it. —
—For which base and haughty expres
sions to you. I do now in sincerity ask forgiveness
for I acknowledge I spoke very ungratefully
and improperly to a Benefactor, yea more a Fa
ther who has been at so much Trouble for me to
fit me to be useful in the World. again I say,
I ask your forgiveness I hope you will not take
hard no longer. — I don't now think myself to
be worthy of your Notice, I wonder you did
beg a Favour of you which will Afford me
Comfort and ease, which, is this, whensoever
you write to Mr. Kirtland charge him
not mention one Syllable of to me, for cuts
me very much: though I see myself a mean
and worthless Fellow and yet I am such
foolish Creature as to trouble
myself when others receive a Letter
fle — Another Favour for Mr. Kirtlands
Comfort, which is this. Dont try to give him
so much Authority as that he would per
suade or take upon himself to govern me or
order me about. as soon as he try to do that
he wont be so comfortable here; for he cant
order me, nor no missionary that shall come
into these Parts. As I am an instructor
I am able to act for myself. without having
a master over me etc.
nah also is well only she has some small
turns of illness which Women of her Condition
are apt to have — I suppose she will like
ly have a trial of pain in June, —
unworthy servant,
David Fowler