Hezekiah Calvin, letter, to Eleazar Wheelock, 1767 August 14
Date14 August, 1767
abstractCalvin writes seeking permission to marry and advice about his future.
RepositoryRauner Special Collections Library, Dartmouth College.
Call Number767464
handwritingClear, formal and legible.
paperPaper is in good condition, with light-to-moderate staining and wear.
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now my Mind, — My Cogitations have been theſe, —
- 1st.after M.r Wheelock had made the propoſition to me about my
going Home, My Mind was eaſ'd, in thinking that if I returned
Home and lik'd the school,thatI should tarry with it if
I could support myself that way, without an Companion: & if
I did not like the School or could not have maintain'd myself
that way, I concluded in my Mind to go to Sea & follow them.
[below] And yet at the same time never to return here again — - 2ndly.I thought of Marrying at home & so follow farming
Buſyneſs, to maintain Me and my Companion, &C - 3rdly.And again the state
[illegible]And condition of my Friends & fellow
Brethren would be hovering in my Mind daily, so
that I was almost ready to conclude to spend my life
amongſt them any where, if it were among the very
wildeſt of them if I could but have it in my Mind
that I should be likely of doing them any good
And so I left theſe thoughts in a [illegible][guess (h-dawnd): Par] leaving them to be
concluded when I got home &c — —
know not what to say, it is true that we have concluded
to join. And my affections are so great for her, I should be
very loth to leave her, — Yet if M.r Wheelock has a mind yt
we should part I can leave her if you will let me go home & never to
return again, but conclude to one of the two of my first
thoughts. I leave the affair wholly with you to conlude;
for thou canst adviſe as a father, &c — —
I greatly have a fond for, that I might learn somewhat
of my own Native Language, that I might be the better
fitted for the Deſign you have in view, that I might
be able to carry on a free discourſe with the
And not be as A dumb stump that has no tounge
to uſe, like as when I was among the Mohawk Indians
how tireſome was my life; could,nt understand, Ym.
[gap: stain][guess (h-dawnd): no] body to keep [gap: stain][guess (h-dawnd): at a free] discourſe with. — this is
what lays in my Mind.
Friendship with the Mohawks, — I ſhould be very glad
[left]it seems to me to see my Brethren become christians & live like Christians
My Mind is full. I cant expreſs myself