Levi Frisbie, letter, to Eleazar Wheelock, 1767 June 12
Date12 June, 1767
abstractFrisbie writes that his poor health prevents him from doing the work for which Wheelock educated him.
RepositoryRauner Special Collections Library, Dartmouth College.
Call Number767362.2
handwritingHandwriting is formal and clear.
paperLarge sheet folded in half to make four pages is in good condition, with light staining, creasing and wear.
inkDark-brown ink bleeds through the paper.
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moves me to addreſs you with theſe lines
is what gives one much Trouble, & Anxiety.
I understand Sir you are apprehensive (& perhaps
not without reaſon) that my Circumstances
are such, perticularly respecting my Health,
that I shall not be able to answer the End you
had in veiw when you receiv'd me into the School.
and perhaps Sir you may think I aim'd to
deceive you concerning the state of my Health
and Constitution. But I am confident I can
say with a good Conscience that I endeavourd
to tell you the whole Truth, and if I did not it
was becauſe I was deceiv'd about myself: for
I durst not neither would it have been for my In‐
terest to have discembled, in an Affair of so great
importance; for thereby I should have expoſd myself
to much Blame: I cant but have a grateful
Sense of your many undeservd Favour. & desire
to return you my sincere Thanks for them; especially
for the pains you have taken to instruct me in to the
Nature & importance of this great Affair which I
have engag'd in. I have considerd much upon what you
have said to me lately respecting my Health &c — — — —
and am greatly concernd to find that my health is very
poor my Constitution so weak that a small thing over comes
me: I ougt to have a Senſe of the frowns of Providence
in denying me that measure of Health which is necſsary
for me in order to my being servisable in this affar. And
I should be wholly descourag'd if it was not, that the
work is God's and that he can make uſe of me if he
pleaſes in his Work not withstanding my weakneſs
and Inability, for he often makes uſe of the most
Despicable means to accompliſh his Designs that
his Power & Goodneſs may more clearly appear.
But yet I cant be certain it is my duty under my
present Circumstances to devote myself to this Serv‐
ice. And Several things cauſe me to doubt whether
I can consistent with my Duty to God and my self
proceed any fu
Sir I am much descouragd, & Things seem to look with
a dark aſpect upon me; there seemes to be some thing in
the way to my serving God and his Cauſe in this Affair.
M.r Johnson tells me that the Indians make no allow‐
ance for a Mans not being well, and if he cant go
thro' fier and Water, they esteem him as a
poor mean fellow, and if one gets their Disresp‐
ect, and Illwill, he is under no great advantages
to do them Good; and had I never so Strong a Cons‐
titution, were my Hopes of doing Good ever so great,
and could I ever so consistent with right and Jus‐
tice, proceed in this affair I should not chuſe to, with‐
out it was intirely agreeable to your Will, without
you
ing your Expectations. For I know it must
neceſsarily give you a great deal of axciety, and
troubles to think you had expended Christs
Money upon me to no good purpoſe. Sir I
beg you to act with the Strictest Regard to the
Interest of Christ and the Good of the School whether
it may pleaſe me or not, for notwithstanding I
esteem the thing as highly as ever, yet I Shall freely
submit to your Superior Judgment in the Matter.
if I have been to blame in the affair I desire to
be Heartily Sorry for it, and would humbly beg your
Perdon, and desire your aſsistance both by your pray‐
er and direction. but I fear I have already trans‐
greſsd upon your Patience: so beg liberty to Subscribe my‐
self
Levi Friſbie