I
Mary Secutor acknowledge, and desire to do it with Shame
and blushing before God and all who are acquainted with my
Sins, that I have been
repeatedly Scandalously guilty of
the Sin of drunkenness, and particularly last Evening being the
Evening following the Lords Day December 27. 1767. I went into
the School while I was intoxicated with Liquor and
there
behaved myself in a lewd and very immodest manner among
the School Boys, I also in a vile manner profaned the sacred
name of God. Whereby I have brought Reproach and Ruin
upon myself my Character and my precious Soul, have grieved
the Heart of my
Reverend Patron Who has been
unwearied
in his Labours of Love and Care and kindness for me and for
the School, I have brought irreparable Reproach upon
the School and the important cause which I ought to have
regarded more than even my own Life, and have awfully
disappointed
and
blasted all the hopes that have been conceived
that I might in my Place have borne my part in furthering
the Same. I have Set a most Ill Example before the scholars
which if they follow they can expect nothing but that the causes
of God denounced against Such will take place upon them, and that
that with me they must Bear their part in that eternal misery to
Which I Stand justly
condemned. but most of all is the wound which
I have given, to, and the Reproach I have Cast,
upon the Name
of God, and the cause of the dear Redeemer — this I have done
against multiplied learning counsels, instructions and all appointed
means and Endeavours from Day to day used with me.
I desire to humble myself before God and man for What I have done
and implore divine pardon through
the Blood of Christ. I also ask
forgiveness of the Rev.
Dr.
Wheelock, and of all his family and
School and of all who are knowing to my heinous
offenses —
and I promise by divine Grace to walk humbly and in all respects
circumspectly, for time to come — and it is my full
purpose to leave off the
use of all Spirituous Liquors for time to
come — I confess it is just if I am sent away with disgrace from
this School as unworthy
the Honour of being a member of
it, but if it may consist with the Glory of God and the Reputation
of
this School I earnestly
and humbly desire I may yet be continued
upon trial, and if my fruits Shall be becoming a penitent, that I
may be
restored and my Scandalous Crimes be concealed as much
as may be from my Nation and from the world.