Agreeable to your Advice, and
Desire, I attempt to address you with a few broken Li
=nes. I am sensible I am unable to render that Respect
(either with my Tongue or Pen) which is
justly due to you;
but yet I look upon myself bound in point of Gratitude
as
well as on other Accounts to testify my sense of your
kindness to me by every token of Respect, and act of
Obedience that I am capable of.
and as I trust you
will put me to nothing but what is just so I
shall endeavour to perform your Will with the
ut
most Freedom and Dexterity. and since you have
been pleased to receive me into
the School,
notwithstanding I am utterly undeserving of
such a Favour, I desire to return you the most
grateful Thanks, as
all the acknowledgement I
am capable of making you at present for such a
kindness. and God grant I may so conduct my
self at all times and
under all Circumstances
that I may be an Honour to
the
School, to Religion
and to you my great Benefactor. Conscious of my
own Impotency I desire you would be mindful
of me in your ardent
Requests to Heaven, that
God would abundantly replenish me with his
grace, that I may be made the Instrument in his
Hand, of converting Multitudes of the Poor benighted
Savages to Himself; that I may
be endowed with
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all that Courage, Fortitude, and Love,
to God and the
Souls of the poor Savages as may be necessary
in order to my being serviceable in carrying on
such and Important Work. One great bar in the
way to my becoming serviceable in this Affair (and
perhaps this is enough without any other) is that
I have the greatest Reason to fear that I have not
the Grace of God in my Heart;
without which I Shall
not only be miserable to all Eternity, but also be
unable
to do any thing in this grand and interesting
Affair; but it appears to me if I can
have the
assistance of God if I may have his presence,
if I may be enabled to trust in him in every
strait and under every Difficulty, I can travel
from one End of the wilderness to the Other spend my
Life my Strength and my All in his Service, can
encounter the greatest Difficulties, and undergo the
greatest Hardships, that may
attend me in
the Savage Land: but notwithstanding I am
in Some measure Sensible
that without the
Assistance of God I Shall be wholly unequal
to the task; yet O!
how unconcerned am I about
it, how hard is my Heart how Stubborn my
Will!—
— but least I be tedious even to a
Crime
I conclude with Subscribing myself
Honoured Sir