yours of
July 24.th is before me. I rejoice al
ways to hear of your
health & prosperity & have never faild
of a disposition to promote your usefulneſs
& your
Comfort, but to use the same freedom which You
approve & set me an example of, I must tell You
I either very much want a good
spiritual taste
or your Litter has a very ill savor for a Christain
or rather if I have any good taste at all, it much
savors of pride,
arrogance & a want of proper
concern to heal the bleeding wounds of our
glorious
Redeemer. You discover very great Ig
norance of my plan, my
object, my reasons &
motives, my views & prospects, and as great a
degree of uncharitableneſs as of ignorance. You
shew no degree of brotherly &
Christain Sympathy
towards me in my long & weary travil, notwith
stand.
g your nation have been inv
iariably my
chief object, nor any
disposition to encourage
my Heart or strengthen my hands, tho' un
der a weight heavy eno' to crush an Angel,
and in a Cause which has been & still is, so
astonishingly own'd of God —
And 'tho my memory be poor, yet matters which
impreſs my mind, as the follow.
g particulars have
done, I am far from imagin.
g that I have only
dream'd about them viz.
t 1.
st when I saw you after
your return from
Europe I propos'd your going on a
miſsion among remote tribes, as those near you
were a
[illegible][guess: ll u]^[illegible]^nder the care of & supplied by the
London Board in Boston. you insisted upon your
stay.
g at home
one Year, I propos'd your
mak.
g a settlement for yourself &
Wife
& part
of your famely among some remote na
[illegible][guess: t]tion,
&
promis'd you my aſsistance, & friend
[illegible]ship
^as^ to your
comfortable support there, You rejected the proposal.
I offer'd to take part of your Children, viz.
t all
that were suitable for it, if you pleas'd & educate
them in the best manner I could in
my
School,
You shewed no disposition to comply with it. 2
dly I never discouraged your going into the Indian
Country, nor shew'd any coldneſs towards it, unleſs
when you propos'd only just to make a short
visit, which I was not sure would anſwer the
expence which You let me know would be necſesary
to prepair You for & support you in it —
^3.dly^ You always knew there was money eno' &
my Heart always open to supply you as soon
as I could see your Heart
in earnest to serve
the Redeemer's Cause in that capacity.
4.
dly the first I ever heard of your being dis
pos'd to seek a settlement in the wilder
neſs, was by
M.r Woodward last
Spring^Winter^,
Whereupon I wrote a judicious Christain
friend, to enquire of your moral Charac
ter, & advise whether it was such, as that
I might with honor to the
Redeemer's,
Cau
[illegible]se employ you, &
hope'd to hear, that
which might warrant my proceeding
thereto. And there is noth.
g want.
g at this
time, but proper satisfaction that it
my be done without reproach to the Re
deemer's Cause, in
order to engage all my
heart & powers therein. 5.
[illegible][guess: dly] I beleived
your brother
David did very
sinfully in leav.
g the Cause in the wilderneſs as he did.
& that his treatment of me was very ungenerous
& abusive, the particulars whereof I have
told him. I have constantly wish'd to
see him convinced of this Rashnesſs
& folly, & have
been propense to forgive & restore him, & am so
at this moment, thus I have given you a
little sketch of things
as they lye in my
mind. My dear Man, I think you much dis
honor
God, intreating his great goodneſs to You
in opening such a favorable door to go on your
so much improv.
g &
advantagous tour to
Europe almost as tho' you had gone thro' a most tragical
Scene of persecution. I am now got near my
Journie's end, & long to be at rest, God grant
we may both appear before him, wash'd in
the Redeemer's blood & cloath'd with his white
Robes.
P.S. I shall be glad to employ your Brother
David
& give him a reasonable
Consideration, or as much as you mention, provided
he be in
earnest engaged to promote the Cause proposed. I am weary
of
connections with Men in whom there is no Faith.