abstract: Simon writes to Wheelock that she fears she is irretrievably in the grip of the Devil.
handwriting: Handwriting is small, yet largely clear and legible.
paper: Large sheet folded in half to make four pages is in good condition, with light staining, creasing and wear.
thinking upon things of Religon; and I think thay
donot look So ⇑plain to me as I have Seen them ⇑and I have grat ma
ny wicked thoughts and I donot know what I
Shall do if I donot aſk ſombodys adviſe about
⇑[left]it for I feel very bad about it; I have thought a gr
te while that I would Come and talk ywith ⇑the Dr
but then I thought again that it will not do me
any good; for I have talkd with the Dr gra[illegible][guess: n]t many
times and If I do not mind them words that has
been alraday Said tome I Shall have the more to an
ſwer for; So I thought I would not dgo [illegible]⇑nowhere to
here any thing ⇑or no aſk any qu:.ns about any
it till I am undone for Ever and I be[illegible]live that
Saton is [illegible][guess: beſſer] with me them any body els in
this world Even when I go to Read he taks all
my thoughts away upon Somthing Els
and my temptation he las before me I thought
I [illegible]never would not till any body of it but as
I was at home this after noon all alone I was
thinking upon thise things and wondering
what[illegible] I ſhould do and I thought of a book I [illegible][guess: hered]
Read onſe that when any one was at loſt
about any thing thay muſt go to lhare —
minſter and inquire of [illegible]them and there
⇑will lead you into it, and then I think it is my duty
to Come and take your adviſe. and I ⇑what want to know
⇑I uncureable or fnot; the devil is [illegible][guess: jiſt]
Redy Sometimes to ⇑make me think that be caſe I have
made a perfertion and do not ⇑alwas keep upright.
and itſeems to me all the true Chriſtan never
meats with Such a ſtruggte with ſaton as
I do and ſo that maks me fear that I am
a Chriſtan becaſe the Devil is ſo be[illegible: [guess: ſ]]e with
me more than he is with any one Els. for wh
en I d go to try to pray he till me that it
will not do andy good nither will it merat
any thing ſo he trys Every thing to put
me back. and o what ſhall I do it seam
to me I could writ all this right to you
if it would do any good but i fear it will
[illegible] not. —
ſilfe your moſt humble and Ever
Dutyfull Searvent ſarah ſimon
the Re:end M:r Elezer Wheelak ⇑[below]DD
Miss Sarah Simon was a member of the Narragansett Simon family: Mrs. Sarah Simon, Miss Sarah Simon, James Simon, Abraham Simon, Daniel Simon, and Emmanual Simon. All five children (there was at least one other) were educated at Moor's, to some degree. The Simon family spells their name Simon, but Wheelock and others vary it. Miss Sarah was one of Wheelock's female students, and wrote a spiritually troubled letter to him before departing (769900.1).
Eleazar Wheelock was a New Light Congregationalist minister who founded Dartmouth College. He was born into a very typical Congregationalist family, and began studying at Yale in 1729, where he fell in with the emerging New Light clique. The evangelical network that he built in college propelled him to fame as an itinerant minister during the First Great Awakening and gave him many of the contacts that he later drew on to support his charity school for Native Americans. Wheelock’s time as an itinerant minister indirectly brought about his charity school. When the Colony of Connecticut retroactively punished itinerant preaching in 1743, Wheelock was among those who lost his salary. Thus, in 1743, he began operating a grammar school to support himself. He was joined that December by Samson Occom, a Mohegan Indian, who sought out an education in hopes of becoming a teacher among his people. Occom’s academic success inspired Wheelock to train Native Americans as missionaries. To that end, he opened Moor’s Indian Charity School in 1754 (where he continued to train Anglo-American students who paid their own way as well as students who functionally indentured themselves to Wheelock as missionaries in exchange for an education). Between 1754 and 1769, when he relocated to New Hampshire, Wheelock trained approximately 60 male and female Native American students from nearby Algonquian tribes and from the Haudenosaunee (Iroquois) of central New York. At the same time, he navigated the complicated politics of missionary societies by setting up his own board of the Society in Scotland for Propagating Christian Knowledge, although he continued to feud with the Boston Board of the SSPCK and the London Commissioners in Boston (more colloquially called the New England Company). By the late 1760s, Wheelock had become disillusioned with the idea of Native American education. He was increasingly convinced that educating Native Americans was futile (several of his students had failed to conform to his confusing and contradictory standards), and, in late 1768, he lost his connection to the Haudenosaunee. With his inclination and ability to sponsor Native American missionaries largely depleted, Wheelock sought instead to fulfill his ultimate ambition of obtaining a charter and opening a college, which he did in 1769. To fund this new enterprise, Wheelock drew on the £12,000 that Samson Occom had raised for Moor’s Indian Charity School during a two-and-a-half year tour of Great Britain (1765 to 1768). Much of this money went towards clearing land and erecting buildings in New Hampshire for the Charity School’s relocation — infrastructure that also happened to benefit Dartmouth. Many of Wheelock’s contemporaries were outraged by what they saw as misuse of the money, as it was clear that Dartmouth College was not intended for Indians and that Moor’s had become a side project. Although Wheelock tried to maintain at least some commitment to Native American education by recruiting students from Canadian communities, the move did a great deal of damage to his public image. The last decade of Wheelock’s life was not easy. In addition to the problems of trying to set up a college far away from any Anglo-American urban center, Wheelock experienced the loss of relationships with two of his most famous and successful students, Samson Occom and Samuel Kirkland (an Anglo-American protégé). He also went into debt for Dartmouth College, especially after the fund raised in Britain was exhausted.